“smoke without fire.” My last communication
from head-quarters was full of nothing but gay doings
—balls, dinners, dejeunes, and more than
all, private theatricals, seemed to occupy the entire
attention of every man of the gallant __th. I
was earnestly entreated to come, without waiting for
the end of my leave—that several of my
old “parts were kept open for me;” and
that, in fact, the “boys of Kilkenny”
were on tip-toe in expectation of my arrival, as though
his Majesty’s mail were to convey a Kean or a
Kemble. I shuddered a little as I read this,
and recollected “my last appearance on any stage,”
little anticipating, at the moment, that my next was
to be nearly as productive of the ludicrous, as time
and my confessions will show. One circumstance,
however, gave me considerable pleasure. It was
this:—I took it for granted that, in the
varied and agreeable occupations which so pleasurable
a career opened, my adventures in love would escape
notice, and that I should avoid the merciless raillery
my two failures, in six months, might reasonably be
supposed to call forth. I therefore wrote a hurried
note to Curzon, setting forth the great interest all
their proceedings had for me, and assuring him that
my stay in town should be as short as possible, for
that I longed once more to “strut the monarch
of the boards,” and concluded with a sly paragraph,
artfully intended to act as a “paratonnere”
to the gibes and jests which I dreaded, by endeavouring
to make light of my matrimonial speculations.
The postscript ran somewhat thus—“Glorious
fun have I had since we met; but were it not that
my good angel stood by me, I should write these hurried
lines with a wife at my elbow; but luck, that never
yet deserted, is still faithful to your old friend,
H. Lorrequer.”
My reader may suppose—for he is sufficiently
behind the scenes with me —with what feelings
I penned these words; yet any thing was better than
the attack I looked forward to: and I should rather
have changed into the Cape Rifle Corps, or any other
army of martyrs, than meet my mess with all the ridicule
my late proceedings exposed me to. Having disburthened
my conscience of this dread, I finished my breakfast,
and set out on a stroll through the town.
I believe it is Coleridge who somewhere says, that
to transmit the first bright and early impressions
of our youth, fresh and uninjured to a remote period
of life, constitutes one of the loftiest prerogatives
of genius. If this be true, and I am not disposed
to dispute it—what a gifted people must
be the worthy inhabitants of Dublin; for I scruple
not to affirm, that of all cities of which we have
any record in history, sacred or profane, there is
not one so little likely to disturb the tranquil current
of such reminiscences. “As it was of old,
so is it now,” enjoying a delightful permanency
in all its habits and customs, which no changes elsewhere
disturb or affect; and in this respect I defy O’Connell
and all the tail to refuse it the epithet of “Conservative.”