quite firm in opposition to her aunt,—who
was in truth a woman much less strong by nature than
herself,—she dreaded a farther dispute
with her uncle. She could not bear to think
that he should be enabled to accuse her with justice
of ingratitude. It had been her great pleasure
to be true to him, and he had answered her truth by
a perfect confidence which had given a charm to her
life. Now this would all be over, and she would
be driven again to beg him to send her away, that
she might become a household drudge elsewhere.
And now that this very moment of her agony had come,
and that this man to whom she had given a promise
was there to claim her, how was she to go down and
say what she had to say, before all the world?
It was perfectly clear to her that in accordance
with her reception of Urmand at the first moment of
their meeting, so must be her continued conduct towards
him, till he should leave her, or else take her away
with him. She could not smile on him and shake
hands with him, and cut his bread for him and pour
out his wine, after such a letter as she had written
to him, without signifying thereby that the letter
was to go for nothing. Now, let what might happen,
the letter was not to go for nothing. The letter
was to remain a true fact, and a true letter.
’I can’t go down, Aunt Josey; indeed
I can’t,’ she said. ’I am not
well, and I should drop. Pray tell Uncle Michel,
with my best love and with my duty, that I can’t
go to him now.’ And she sat still upon
her bed, not weeping, but clasping her hands, and
trying to see her way out of her misfortune.
The dinner was eaten in grim silence, and after the
dinner Michel, still grimly silent, sat with his friend
on the bench before the door and smoked a cigar.
While he was smoking, Michel said never a word.
But he was thinking of the difficulty he had to overcome;
and he was thinking also, at odd moments, whether
his own son George was not, after all, a better sort
of lover for a young woman than this young man who
was seated by his side. But it never occurred
to him that he might find a solution of the difficulty
by encouraging this second idea. Urmand, during
this time, was telling himself that it behoved him
to be a man, and that his sitting there in silence
was hardly proof of his manliness. He knew that
he was being ill-treated, and that he must do something
to redress his own wrongs, if he only knew how to
do it. He was quite determined that he would
not be a coward; that he would stand up for his own
rights. But if a young woman won’t marry
a man, a man can’t make her do so, either by
scolding her, or by fighting any of her friends.
In this case the young lady’s friends were
all on his side. But the weight of that half
hour of silence and of Michel’s gloom was intolerable
to him. At last he got up and declared he would
go and see an old woman who would have linen to sell.
’As I am here, I might as well do a stroke
of work,’ he said, striving to be jocose.