oak table had a great pewter inkstand upon it and
a few loose sheets of paper with two or three quill
pens ready to hand,—some quaint old vellum-bound
volumes and a brown earthenware bowl full of “Glory”
roses were set just where they could catch the morning
sunshine through the lattice window. One side
of the room was lined with loaded bookshelves, and
at its furthest end a wide arch of roughly hewn oak
disclosed a smaller apartment where she slept.
Here there was a quaint little four-poster bedstead,
hung with quite priceless Jacobean tapestry, and a
still more rare and beautiful work of art—an
early Italian mirror, full length and framed in silver,
a curio worth many hundreds of pounds. In this
mirror Innocent had surveyed herself with more or
less disfavour since her infancy. It was a mirror
that had always been there—a mirror in which
the wife of the Sieur Amadis must have often gazed
upon her own reflection, and in which, after her,
all the wives and daughters of the succeeding Jocelyns
had seen their charms presented to their own admiration.
The two old dower-chests which had been found in the
upper chamber were placed on either side of the mirror,
and held all the simple home-made garments which were
Innocent’s only wear. A special joy of
hers lay in the fact that she knew the management of
the secret sliding panel, and that she could at her
own pleasure slip up the mysterious stairway with
a book and be thus removed from all the household
in a solitude which to her was ideal. To-night
as she wandered up and down her room like a little
distraught ghost, all the happy and romantic associations
of the home she had loved and cherished for so many
years seemed cut down like a sheaf of fair blossoms
by a careless reaper,—a sordid and miserable
taint was on her life, and she shuddered with mingled
fear and grief as she realised that she had not even
the simple privilege of ordinary baptism. She
was a nameless waif, dependent on the charity of Farmer
Jocelyn. True, the old man had grown to love her
and she had loved him—ah!—let
the many tender prayers offered up for him in this
very room bear witness before the throne of God to
her devotion to her “father” as she had
thought him! And now—if what the doctors
said was true—if he was soon to die—what
would become of her? She wrung her little hands
in unconscious agony.
“What shall I do?” she murmured, sobbingly—“I
have no claim on him, or on anyone in the world!
Dear God, what shall I do?”
Her restless walk up and down took her into her sleeping-chamber,
and there she lit a candle and looked at herself in
the old Italian mirror. A little woe-begone creature
gazed sorrowfully back at her from its shining surface,
with brimming eyes and quivering lips, and hair all
tossed loosely away from a small sad face as pale
as a watery moon, and she drew back from her own reflection
with a gesture of repugnance.
“I am no use to anybody in any way,” she
said, despairingly—“I am not even
good-looking. And Robin—poor foolish
Robin!—called me ‘lovely’ this
afternoon! He has no eyes!”