“It’s the old story, I see! Do a good action and it turns out a curse! Basely born! Of course you are basely born, if that’s the way you put it! What man alive would leave his own lawful child at a strange farm off the high-road and never claim it again? You’re a fool, I tell you! This man who brought you to me was by his look and bearing some fine gentleman or other who had just the one idea in his head—to get rid of an encumbrance. And so he got rid of you—”
“Don’t go over the whole thing again!” she interrupted, with weary patience-"-I was an encumbrance to him—I’ve been an encumbrance to you. I’m sorry! But in no case had you the right to set a stigma on me which perhaps does not exist. That was wrong!”
She paused a moment, then went on slowly:
“I’ve been a burden on you for six years now,—it’s six years, you say, since the money stopped. I wish I could do something in return for what I’ve cost you all those six years,—I’ve tried to be useful.”
The pathos in her voice touched him to the quick.
“Innocent!” he exclaimed, and held out his arms.
She looked at him with a very pitiful smile and shook her head.
“No! I can’t do that! Not just yet! You see, it’s all so unexpected—things have changed altogether in a moment. I can’t feel quite the same—my heart seems so sore and cold.”
He leaned back in his chair again.
“Ah, well, it is as I thought!” he said, irritably. “You’re more concerned about yourself than about me. A few minutes ago you only cared to know what the doctors thought of my illness, but now it’s nothing to you that I shall be dead in a year. Your mind is set on your own trouble, or what you choose to consider a trouble.”
She heard him like one in a dream. It seemed very strange to her that he should have dealt her a blow and yet reproach her for feeling the force of it.
“I am sorry!” she said, patiently. “But this is the first time I have known real trouble—you forget that!—and you must forgive me if I am stupid about it. And if the doctors really believe you are to die in a year I wish I could take your place, Dad!—I would rather be dead than live shamed. And there’s nothing left for me now,—not even a name—”
Here she paused and seemed to reflect.
“Why am I called Innocent?”
“Why? Because that’s the name that was written on every slip of paper that came with each six months’ money,” he answered, testily. “That’s the only reason I know.”
“Was I baptised by that name?” she asked.
He moved uneasily.
“You were never baptised.”
“Never baptised!” She echoed the words despairingly,—and then was silent for a minute’s space. “Could you not have done that much for me?” she asked, plaintively, at last—“Would it have been impossible?”
He was vaguely ashamed. Her eyes, pure as a young child’s, were fixed upon him in appealing sorrow. He began to feel that he had done her a grievous wrong, though he had never entirely realised it till now. He answered her with some hesitation and an effort at excuse.