‘What?’
‘Your friend, Mr Lessingham.’
’Excuse me, Miss Lindon, but I am by no means sure that anyone is entitled to call Mr Lessingham a friend of mine.’
‘What!—Not when I am going to be his wife?’
That took me aback. I had had my suspicions that Paul Lessingham was more with Marjorie than he had any right to be, but I had never supposed that she could see anything desirable in a stick of a man like that. Not to speak of a hundred and one other considerations,—Lessingham on one side of the House, and her father on the other; and old Lindon girding at him anywhere and everywhere—with his high-dried Tory notions of his family importance,—to say nothing of his fortune.
I don’t know if I looked what I felt,—if I did, I looked uncommonly blank.
’You have chosen an appropriate moment, Miss Lindon, to make to me such a communication.’
She chose to disregard my irony.
’I am glad you think so, because now you will understand what a difficult position I am in.’
‘I offer you my hearty congratulations.’
’And I thank you for them, Mr Atherton, in the spirit in which they are offered, because from you I know they mean so much.’
I bit my lip,—for the life of me I could not tell how she wished me to read her words.
’Do I understand that this announcement has been made to me as one of the public?’
’You do not. It is made to you, in confidence, as my friend,—as my greatest friend; because a husband is something more than friend.’ My pulses tingled. ‘You will be on my side?’
She had paused,—and I stayed silent.
‘On your side,—or Mr Lessingham’s?’
’His side is my side, and my side is his side;—you will be on our side?’
‘I am not sure that I altogether follow you.’
’You are the first I have told. When papa hears it is possible that there will be trouble,—as you know. He thinks so much of you and of your opinion; when that trouble comes I want you to be on our side,—on my side.’
’Why should I?—what does it matter? You are stronger than your father,—it is just possible that Lessingham is stronger than you; together, from your father’s point of view, you will be invincible.’
‘You are my friend,—are you not my friend?’
‘In effect, you offer me an Apple of Sodom.’
‘Thank you;—I did not think you so unkind.’
’And you,—are you kind? I make you an avowal of my love, and, straightway, you ask me to act as chorus to the love of another.’
’How could I tell you loved me,—as you say! I had no notion. You have known me all your life, yet you have not breathed a word of it till now.’
‘If I had spoken before?’
I imagine that there was a slight movement of her shoulders,— almost amounting to a shrug.
’I do not know that it would have made any difference.—I do not pretend that it would. But I do know this, I believe that you yourself have only discovered the state of your own mind within the last half-hour.’