designs, growing every moment more confused, more
complicated, more hideous and terrible. Unable
to bear longer the distracting scene, he makes an
effort and opens, his eyes, and dissolves the delirious
dream, only, however, to glide again unconsciously
into another dream-land where another unreal inferno
is dioramically revealed, and new agonies suffered.
Oh! the many many hours, that I have groaned under
the terrible incubi which the fits of real delirium
evoke. Oh! the racking anguish of body that
a traveller in Africa must undergo! Oh! the spite,
the fretfulness, the vexation which the horrible phantasmagoria
of diabolisms induce! The utmost patience fails
to appease, the most industrious attendance fails
to gratify, the deepest humility displeases.
During these terrible transitions, which induce fierce
distraction, Job himself would become irritable, insanely
furious, and choleric. A man in such a state
regards himself as the focus of all miseries.
When recovered, he feels chastened, becomes urbane
and ludicrously amiable, he conjures up fictitious
delights from all things which, but yesterday, possessed
for him such awful portentous aspects. His men
he regards with love and friendship; whatever is trite
he views with ecstasy. Nature appears charming;
in the dead woods and monotonous forest his mind becomes
overwhelmed with delight. I speak for myself,
as a careful analysation of the attack, in all its
severe, plaintive, and silly phases, appeared to me.
I used to amuse myself with taking notes of the humorous
and the terrible, the fantastic and exaggerated pictures
that were presented to me—even while suffering
the paroxysms induced by fever.
We arrived at a large pool, known as the Ziwani, after
a four hours’ march in a S.S.W. direction, the
1st of October. We discovered an old half-burnt
khambi, sheltered by a magnificent mkuyu (sycamore),
the giant of the forests of Unyamwezi, which after
an hour we transformed into a splendid camp.
If I recollect rightly, the stem of the tree measured
thirty-eight feet in circumference. It is the
finest tree of its kind I have seen in Africa.
A regiment might with perfect ease have reposed under
this enormous dome of foliage during a noon halt.
The diameter of the shadow it cast on the ground
was one hundred and twenty feet. The healthful
vigor that I was enjoying about this time enabled
me to regard my surroundings admiringly. A feeling
of comfort and perfect contentment took possession
of me, such as I knew not while fretting at Unyanyembe,
wearing my life away in inactivity. I talked
with my people as to my friends and equals. We
argued with each other about our prospects in quite
a companionable, sociable vein.