their joy that I was once more becoming a man amongst
men. Dr. Rahn-Escher now became a welcome and
comforting friend and visitor, who for many years
thoroughly understood the management of my health,
and especially the misgivings arising from the over-wrought
state of my nerves. He soon verified the wisdom
of his treatment, when in the middle of February I
had undertaken to read my tetralogy aloud on four
consecutive evenings before a larger audience.
I had caught a severe cold after the first evening,
and on the morning of the day for the second reading
I awoke suffering from severe hoarseness. I at
once informed the doctor that my failure to give the
reading would be a serious matter to me, and asked
him what he advised me to do to get rid of the hoarseness
as speedily as possible. He recommended me to
keep quiet all day, and in the evening to be taken
well wrapped up to the place where the readings were
to be held. When I got there I was to take two
or three cups of weak tea, and I should be all right;
whereas if I worried over the failure to keep my engagement
I might become seriously worse. And, indeed,
the reading of this stirring work went off capitally,
and I was, moreover, able to continue the readings
on the third and fourth evenings, and felt perfectly
well. I had secured a large and handsome room
for these meetings in the Hotel Baur au lac, and had
the gratifying experience of seeing it fuller and
fuller each evening, in spite of having invited only
a small number of acquaintances, giving them the option
of bringing any friends who they thought would take
a genuine interest in the subject and not come out
of mere curiosity. Here, too, the verdict seemed
altogether favourable, and it was from the most serious
university men and government officials that I received
assurances of the greatest appreciation as well as
kindly remarks, showing that my poem and the artistic
ideas connected with it had been fully understood.
From the peculiar earnestness with which they gave
vent to their opinions, which in this case were so
confidently unanimous, the idea occurred to me to try
how far this favourable impression might be utilized
to serve the higher aims of art. In accordance
with the superficial views generally prevailing on
the subject, every one seemed to think I might be
induced to make terms with the theatre. I tried
to think out how it would be possible to convert the
ill-equipped Zurich theatre into a highly developed
one by adopting sound principles, and I laid my views
before the public in a pamphlet entitled ’A
Theatre in Zurich.’ The edition, consisting
of about a hundred copies, was sold, yet I never noticed
the least indication of any result from the publication;
the only outcome was, that at a banquet of the Musical
Society my excellent friend, Herr Ott-Imhoff, expressed
his entire disagreement with the statements uttered
by various people, that these ideas of mine were all
very grand, but unfortunately quite impracticable.