and in doing so he had sacrificed his own wishes to
a conscientious performance of duty in the extremest
sense of the word, and now, through his acquaintance
with me, he was drawn more deeply into the sphere of
aesthetic enjoyment than he regarded as justifiable.
Probably he would have indulged less freely in these
excesses, had I taken my art a little less seriously.
But as I insisted upon attaching an importance to
the artistic destiny of mankind which far transcended
the mere aims of citizenship, I sometimes completely
upset him. Yet, on the other hand, it was just
this intense earnestness which so strongly attracted
him to me and my speculations. This not only
gave rise to pleasant conversation and calm discussion
between us, but also, owing to a fiery temper on both
sides, sometimes provoked violent explosions, so that,
with trembling lips, he would seize hat and stick and
hurry away without a word of farewell. Such,
however, was the intrinsic worth of the man, that
he was sure to turn up again the next evening at the
accustomed hour, when we both felt as though nothing
whatever had passed between us. But when certain
bodily ailments compelled him to remain indoors for
many days, it was difficult to gain access to him,
for he was apt to become furious when any one inquired
about his health. On these occasions there was
only one way of putting him in a good temper, and that
was to say that one had called to ask a favour of
him. Thereupon he was pleasantly surprised, and
would not only declare himself ready to oblige in
any way that was in his power, but would assume a
really cheerful and benevolent demeanour.
A remarkable contrast to him was presented by the
musician Wilhelm Baumgartner, a merry, jovial fellow,
without any aptitude for concentration, who had learned
just enough about the piano to be able, as teacher
at so much an hour, to earn what he required for a
living. He had a taste for what was beautiful,
provided it did not soar too high, and possessed a
true and loyal heart, full of a great respect for
Sulzer, which unfortunately could not cure him of
a craving for the public-house.
Besides this man, there were two others who had also
from the very first formed part of our circle.
Both of them were friends of the pair I have already
mentioned; their names were Hagenbuch, a worthy and
respectable deputy cantonal secretary; and Bernhard
Spyri, a lawyer, and at that time editor of the Eidgenossische
Zeitung. The latter was a singularly good-tempered
man, but not overburdened with intellect, for which
reason Sulzer always treated him with special consideration.
Alexander Muller soon disappeared from our midst,
as he became more and more engrossed by domestic calamities,
bodily infirmities, and the mechanical drudgery of
giving lessons by the hour. As for the musician
Abt, I had never felt particularly drawn towards him,
in spite of his Schwalben, and he too speedily left
us to carve a brilliant career for himself in Brunswick.