would have willingly recalled as soon as spoken.
But words spoken cannot be recalled, and many a man
and many a woman who has spoken a word at once regretted,
are far too proud to express that regret. So
it was with Louis Trevelyan when he told his wife that
he did not wish Colonel Osborne to come so often to
his house. He had said it with a flashing eye
and an angry tone; and though she had seen the eye
flash before, and was familiar with the angry tone,
she had never before felt herself to be insulted by
her husband. As soon as the word had been spoken
Trevelyan had left the room and had gone down among
his books. But when he was alone he knew that
he had insulted his wife. He was quite aware that
he should have spoken to her gently, and have explained
to her, with his arm round her waist, that it would
be better for both of them that this friend’s
friendship should be limited. There is so much
in a turn of the eye and in the tone given to a word
when such things have to be said, so much more of
importance than in the words themselves. As Trevelyan
thought of this, and remembered what his manner had
been, how much anger he had expressed, how far he had
been from having his arm round his wife’s waist
as he spoke to her, he almost made up his mind to
go upstairs and to apologise. But he was one
to whose nature the giving of any apology was repulsive.
He could not bear to have to own himself to have been
wrong. And then his wife had been most provoking
in her manner to him. When he had endeavoured
to make her understand his wishes by certain disparaging
hints which he had thrown out as to Colonel Osborne,
saying that he was a dangerous man, one who did not
show his true character, a snake in the grass, a man
without settled principles, and such like, his wife
had taken up the cudgels for her friend, and had openly
declared that she did not believe a word of the things
that were alleged against him. ‘But still
for all that it is true,’ the husband had said.
‘I have no doubt that you think so,’ the
wife had replied. ’Men do believe evil
of one another, very often. But you must excuse
me if I say that I think you are mistaken. I have
known Colonel Osborne much longer than you have done,
Louis, and papa has always had the highest opinion
of him.’ Then Mr Trevelyan had become very
angry, and had spoken those words which he could not
recall. As he walked to and fro among his books
downstairs, he almost felt that he ought to beg his
wife’s pardon. He knew his wife well enough
to be sure that she would not forgive him unless he
did so. He would do so, he thought, but not exactly
now. A moment would come in which it might be
easier than at present. He would be able to assure
her when he went up to dress for dinner, that he had
meant no harm. They were going out to dine at
the house of a lady of rank, the Countess Dowager
of Milborough, a lady standing high in the world’s
esteem, of whom his wife stood a little in awe; and
he calculated that this feeling, if it did not make
his task easy would yet take from it some of its difficulty.
Emily would be, not exactly cowed, by the prospect
of Lady Milborough’s dinner, but perhaps a little
reduced from her usual self-assertion. He would
say a word to her when he was dressing, assuring her
that he had not intended to animadvert in the slightest
degree upon her own conduct.