kiss a lip, to clasp a waist, to hear even the low
voice of the vanquished, confessing loved one as she
hides her blushing cheek upon your shoulder—what
is it all but to have reached the once mysterious
valley of your far-off mountain, and to have found
that it is as other valleys, rocks and stones, with
a little grass, and a thin stream of running water?
But beyond that pressing of the hand, and that kissing
of the lips, beyond that short-lived pressure of the
plumage which is common to birds and men, what could
love do beyond that? There were children with
dirty faces and household bills, and a wife, who must,
perhaps, always darn the stockings and be sometimes
cross. Was love to lead only to this, a dull
life, with a woman who had lost the beauty from her
cheeks, and the gloss from her hair, and the music
from her voice, and the fire from her eye and the
grace from her step, and whose waist an arm should
no longer be able to span? Did the love of the
poets lead to that, and that only? Then, through
the cloud of smoke, there came upon him some dim idea
of self-abnegation that the mysterious valley among
the mountains, the far-off prospect of which was so
charming to him, which made the poetry of his life,
was, in fact, the capacity of caring more for other
human beings than for himself. The beauty of
it all was not so much in the thing loved, as in the
loving. ‘Were she a cripple, hunchbacked,
eyeless’ he said to, himself, ‘it might
be the same. Only she must be a woman.’
Then he blew off a great cloud of smoke, and went
into bed lost amid poetry, philosophy, love, and tobacco.
It had been arranged overnight that he was to start
the next morning at half-past seven, and Priscilla
had promised to give him his breakfast before he went.
Priscilla, of course, kept her word. She was one
of those women who would take a grim pleasure in coming
down to make the tea at any possible hour, at five,
at four, if it were needed, and who would never want
to go to bed again when the ceremony was performed.
But when Nora made her appearance—Nora,
who had been dainty—both Priscilla and
Hugh were surprised. They could not say why she
was there nor could Nora tell herself. She had
not forgiven him. She had no thought of being
gentle and loving to him. She declared to herself
that she had no wish of saying good-bye to him once
again. But yet she was in the room, waiting for
him, when he came down to his breakfast. She
had been unable to sleep, and had reasoned with herself
as to the absurdity of lying in bed awake, when she
preferred to be up and out of the house. It was
true that she had not been out of her bed at seven
any morning since she had been at Nuncombe Putney;
but that was no reason why she should not be more
active on this special morning. There was a noise
in the house, and she never could sleep when there
was a noise. She was quite sure that she was not
going down because she wished to see Hugh Stanbury,
but she was equally sure that it would be a disgrace