that the tranquillity of the Clock House at Nuncombe
Putney afforded to her all that she desired.
She had been there now a month, and was almost sick
from the want of excitement. And she was full
of wrath against her husband. Why had he sent
her there to break her heart in, a disgraceful retirement,
when she had never wronged him? From morning to
night she had no employment, no amusement, nothing
to satisfy her cravings. Why was she to be doomed
to such an existence? She had declared that as
long as she could have her boy with her, she would
be happy. She was allowed to have her boy; but
she was anything but happy. When she received
Colonel Osborne’s letter, while she held it in
her hand still unopened, she never for a moment thought
that that could make her happy. But there was
in it something of excitement. And she painted
the man to herself in brighter colours now than she
had ever given to him in her former portraits.
He cared for her. He was gracious to her.
He appreciated her talents, her beauty, and her conduct.
He knew that she deserved a treatment very different
from that accorded to her by her husband. Why
should she reject the sympathy of her father’s
oldest friend, because her husband was madly jealous
about an old man? Her husband had chosen to send
her away, and to leave her, so that she must act on
her own judgment. Acting on her own judgment,
she read Colonel Osborne’s letter from first
to last. She knew that he was wrong to speak
of coming to Nuncombe Putney; but yet she thought that
she would see him. She had a dim perception that
she was standing on the edge of a precipice, on broken
ground which might fall under her without a moment’s
warning, and yet she would not retreat from the danger.
Though Colonel Osborne was wrong, very wrong in coming
to see her, yet she liked him for coming. Though
she would be half afraid to tell her news to Mrs Stanbury,
and more than half afraid to tell Priscilla, yet she
liked the excitement of the fear. Nora would scold
her; but Nora’s scolding she thought she could
answer. And then it was not the fact that Colonel
Osborne was coming down to Devonshire to see her.
He was coming as far as Lessboro’ to see his
friend at Cockchaffington. And when at Lessboro’,
was it likely that he should leave the neighbourhood
without seeing the daughter of his old ally?
And why should he do so?
Was he to be unnatural in his conduct, uncivil, and
unfriendly, because Mr Trevelyan had been foolish,
suspicious, and insane?
So arguing with herself, she answered Colonel Osborne’s
letter before she had spoken on the subject to any
one in the house and this was her answer:
’My dear Colonel Osborne,
I must leave it to your own judgment to decide whether
you will come to Nuncombe Putney or not. There
are reasons which would seem to make it expedient
that you should stay away even though circumstances
are bringing you into the immediate neighbourhood.
But of these reasons I will leave you to be the judge.
I will never let it be said that I myself have had
cause to dread the visit of any old friend. Nevertheless,
if you stay away, I shall understand why you do so.