the prospect of her being Lady Peterborough, the man
who was to be Lord Peterborough was at any rate ready
to make her his wife, and on that side there were none
of those difficulties about house, and money, and position
which stood in the way of the Hugh-Stanbury side of
the question. She was not, she thought, fit to
be the wife of a very poor man; but she conceived of
herself that she would do very well as a future Lady
Peterborough in the drawing-rooms of Monkhams.
She was so far vain as to fancy that she could look,
and speak, and move, and have her being after the fashion
which is approved for the Lady Peterboroughs of the
world. It was not clear to her that Nature had
not expressly intended her to be a Lady Peterborough;
whereas, as far as she could see, Nature had not intended
her to be a Mrs Hugh Stanbury, with a precarious income
of perhaps ten guineas a week when journalism was
doing well. So she moved on to another little
eminence to think of it there. It was clear to
her that if she should accept Mr Glascock she would
sell herself, and not give herself away; and she had
told herself scores of times before this, that a young
woman should give herself away, and not sell herself—
should either give herself away, or keep herself to
herself, as circumstances might go. She had been
quite sure that she would never sell herself.
But this was a lesson which she had taught herself
when she was very young, before she had come to understand
the world and its hard necessities. Nothing,
she now told herself, could be worse than to hang
like a millstone round the neck of a poor man.
It might be a very good thing to give herself away
for love but it would not be a good thing to be the
means of ruining the man she loved, even if that man
were willing to be so ruined. And then she thought
that she could also love that other man a little—could
love him sufficiently for comfortable domestic purposes.
And it would undoubtedly be very pleasant to have
all the troubles of her life settled for her.
If she were Mrs Glascock, known to the world as the
future Lady Peterborough, would it not be within her
power to bring her sister and her sister’s husband
again together? The tribute of the Monkhams authority
and influence to her sister’s side of the question
would be most salutary. She tried to make herself
believe that in this way she would be doing a good
deed. Upon the whole, she thought that if Mr Glascock
should give her another chance she would accept him.
And he had distinctly promised that he would give
her another chance. It might be that this unfortunate
quarrel in the Trevelyan family would deter him.
People do not wish to ally themselves with family
quarrels. But if the chance came in her way she
would accept it. She had made up her mind to that,
when she turned round from off the last knoll on which
she had stood, to return to her sister and Priscilla
Stanbury.
They two had sat still under the shade of a thorn bush, looking at Nora as she was wandering about, and talking together more freely than they had ever done before on the circumstances that had brought them together. ‘How pretty she looks,’ Priscilla had said, as Nora was standing with her figure clearly marked by the light.