could influence the proceedings in Parliament in favour
of those who should be accused. Left to its own
movement, it was much more proper to quicken than
slacken the prosecutions; and who was there to guide
its motions? The Tories who had been true to
one another to the last were a handful, and no great
vigour could be expected from them. The Whimsicals,
disappointed of the figure which they hoped to make,
began, indeed, to join their old friends. One
of the principal amongst them was so very good as
to confess to me that if the Court had called the
servants of the late Queen to account, and had stopped
there, he must have considered himself as a judge,
and have acted according to his conscience on what
should have appeared to him; but that war had been
declared to the whole Tory party, and that now the
state of things was altered. This discourse needed
no commentary, and proved to me that I had never erred
in the judgment I made of this set of men. Could
I then resolve to be obliged to them, or to suffer
with Oxford? As much as I still was heated by
the disputes in which I had been all my life engaged
against the Whigs, I would sooner have chose to owe
my security to their indulgence than to the assistance
of the Whimsicals; but I thought banishment, with
all her train of evils, preferable to either.
I abhorred Oxford to that degree that I could not
bear to be joined with him in any case. Nothing,
perhaps, contributed so much to determine me as this
sentiment. A sense of honour would not have
permitted me to distinguish between his case and mine
own; and it was worse than death to lie under the
necessity of making them the same, and of taking measures
in concert with him.
I am now come to the time at which I left England,
and have finished the first part of that deduction
of facts which I proposed to lay before you.
I am hopeful that you will not think it altogether
tedious or unnecessary; for although very little of
what I have said can be new to you, yet this summary
account will enable you with greater ease to recall
to your memory the passages of those four years wherewith
all that I am going to relate to you has an immediate
and necessary connection.
In what has been said I am far from making my own
panegyric. I had not in those days so much merit
as was ascribed to me, nor since that time have I
had so little as the same persons allowed me.
I committed, without dispute, many faults, and a
greater man than I can pretend to be, constituted
in the same circumstances, would not have kept clear
of all; but with respect to the Tories I committed
none. I carried the point of party honour to
the height, and specified everything to my attachment
to them during this period of time. Let us now
examine whether I have done so during the rest.