CXXXII.
And thou, who never yet of human
wrong
Left the unbalanced scale, great
Nemesis!
Here, where the ancients paid thee
homage long —
Thou, who didst call the Furies
from the abyss,
And round Orestes bade them howl
and hiss
For that unnatural retribution—just,
Had it but been from hands less
near—in this
Thy former realm, I call thee from
the dust!
Dost thou not hear my heart?—Awake! thou
shalt, and must.
CXXXIII.
It is not that I may not have incurred
For my ancestral faults or mine
the wound
I bleed withal, and had it been
conferred
With a just weapon, it had flowed
unbound.
But now my blood shall not sink
in the ground;
To thee I do devote it—thou
shalt take
The vengeance, which shall yet be
sought and found,
Which if I have not taken
for the sake —
But let that pass—I sleep, but thou shalt
yet awake.
CXXXIV.
And if my voice break forth, ’tis
not that now
I shrink from what is suffered:
let him speak
Who hath beheld decline upon my
brow,
Or seen my mind’s convulsion
leave it weak;
But in this page a record will I
seek.
Not in the air shall these my words
disperse,
Though I be ashes; a far hour shall
wreak
The deep prophetic fulness of this
verse,
And pile on human heads the mountain of my curse!
CXXXV.
That curse shall be forgiveness.—Have
I not —
Hear me, my mother Earth! behold
it, Heaven! —
Have I not had to wrestle with my
lot?
Have I not suffered things to be
forgiven?
Have I not had my brain seared,
my heart riven,
Hopes sapped, name blighted, Life’s
life lied away?
And only not to desperation driven,
Because not altogether of such clay
As rots into the souls of those whom I survey.
CXXXVI.
From mighty wrongs to petty perfidy
Have I not seen what human things
could do?
From the loud roar of foaming calumny
To the small whisper of the as paltry
few
And subtler venom of the reptile
crew,
The Janus glance of whose significant
eye,
Learning to lie with silence, would
seem true,
And without utterance, save the
shrug or sigh,
Deal round to happy fools its speechless obloquy.
CXXXVII.
But I have lived, and have not lived
in vain:
My mind may lose its force, my blood
its fire,
And my frame perish even in conquering
pain,
But there is that within me which
shall tire
Torture and Time, and breathe when
I expire:
Something unearthly, which they
deem not of,
Like the remembered tone of a mute
lyre,
Shall on their softened spirits
sink, and move
In hearts all rocky now the late remorse of love.