CXX.
Alas! our young affections run to
waste,
Or water but the desert: whence
arise
But weeds of dark luxuriance, tares
of haste,
Rank at the core, though tempting
to the eyes,
Flowers whose wild odours breathe
but agonies,
And trees whose gums are poison;
such the plants
Which spring beneath her steps as
Passion flies
O’er the world’s wilderness,
and vainly pants
For some celestial fruit forbidden to our wants.
CXXI.
O Love! no habitant of earth thou
art —
An unseen seraph, we believe in
thee,—
A faith whose martyrs are the broken
heart,
But never yet hath seen, nor e’er
shall see,
The naked eye, thy form, as it should
be;
The mind hath made thee, as it peopled
heaven,
Even with its own desiring phantasy,
And to a thought such shape and
image given,
As haunts the unquenched soul—parched—wearied—wrung—and
riven.
CXXII.
Of its own beauty is the mind diseased,
And fevers into false creation;—where,
Where are the forms the sculptor’s
soul hath seized?
In him alone. Can Nature show
so fair?
Where are the charms and virtues
which we dare
Conceive in boyhood and pursue as
men,
The unreached Paradise of our despair,
Which o’er-informs the pencil
and the pen,
And overpowers the page where it would bloom again.
CXXIII.
Who loves, raves—’tis
youth’s frenzy—but the cure
Is bitterer still; as charm by charm
unwinds
Which robed our idols, and we see
too sure
Nor worth nor beauty dwells from
out the mind’s
Ideal shape of such; yet still it
binds
The fatal spell, and still it draws
us on,
Reaping the whirlwind from the oft-sown
winds;
The stubborn heart, its alchemy
begun,
Seems ever near the prize—wealthiest when
most undone.
CXXIV.
We wither from our youth, we gasp
away —
Sick—sick; unfound the
boon, unslaked the thirst,
Though to the last, in verge of
our decay,
Some phantom lures, such as we sought
at first —
But all too late,—so
are we doubly curst.
Love, fame, ambition, avarice—’tis
the same —
Each idle, and all ill, and none
the worst —
For all are meteors with a different
name,
And death the sable smoke where vanishes the flame.
CXXV.
Few—none—find
what they love or could have loved:
Though accident, blind contact,
and the strong
Necessity of loving, have removed
Antipathies—but to recur,
ere long,
Envenomed with irrevocable wrong;
And Circumstance, that unspiritual
god
And miscreator, makes and helps
along
Our coming evils with a crutch-like
rod,
Whose touch turns hope to dust—the dust
we all have trod.