seemed to tell him of some mysterious world within,
which was like the unseen loveliness that one fancies
to be hidden within the bosom of distant mountains.
There was a poem to be read there of surpassing beauty,
rhythmical and eloquent as the music of the spheres,
if it might only be given to a man to read it.
There was an absence, too, of all attempt at feminine
self-glorification which he did not analyse but thoroughly
appreciated. There was no fussy amplification
of hair, no made-up smiles, no affectation either in
her good humour or her anger, no attempt at effect
in her gait, in her speech, or her looks. She
seemed to him to be one who had something within her
on which she could feed independently of the grosser
details of the world to which it was her duty to lend
her hand. And then her colour charmed his eyes.
Miss Trefoil was white and red; white as pearl powder
and red as paint. Mary Masters, to tell the truth,
was brown. No doubt that was the prevailing colour,
if one colour must be named. But there was so
rich a tint of young life beneath the surface, so
soft but yet so visible an assurance of blood and
health and spirit, that no one could describe her
complexion by so ugly a word without falsifying her
gifts. In all her movements she was tranquil,
as a noble woman should be. Even when she had
turned from him with some anger at the bridge, she
had walked like a princess. There was a certainty
of modesty about her which was like a granite wall
or a strong fortress. As he thought of it all
he did not understand how such a one as Lawrence Twentyman
should have dared to ask her to be his wife,—or
should even have wished it.
We know what were her feelings in regard to himself,
how she had come to look almost with worship on the
walls within which he lived; but he had guessed nothing
of this. Even now, when he knew that she had
applied to his aunt in order that she might escape
from her lover, it did not occur to him that she could
care for himself. He was older than she, nearly
twenty years older, and even in his younger years,
in the hard struggles of his early life, had never
regarded himself as a man likely to find favour with
women. There was in his character much of that
modesty for which he gave her such infinite credit.
Though he thought but little of most of those around
him, he thought also but little of himself. It
would break his heart to ask and be refused; but he
could, he fancied, live very well without Mary Masters.
Such, at any rate, had been his own idea of himself
hitherto; and now, though he was driven to think much
of her, though on the present occasion he was forced
to act on her behalf, he would not tell himself that
he wanted to take her for his wife. He constantly
assured himself that he wanted no wife, that for him
a solitary life would be the best. But yet it
made him wretched when he reflected that some man would
assuredly marry Mary Masters. He had heard of
that excellent but empty-head young man Mr. Surtees.
When the idea occurred to him he found himself reviling
Mr. Surtees as being of all men the most puny, the
most unmanly, and the least worthy of marrying Mary
Masters. Now that Mr. Twentyman was certainly
disposed of, he almost became jealous of Mr. Surtees.