As for me, I consider myself a man whose career is ended.  My brain is not going to recover.  One can write no longer when one does not think well of oneself.  I demand only one thing, that is to die, so to be at rest.

CLXXVII.  TO GEORGE SAND Sunday evening

I am still alive, dear master, but I am hardly any better, for I am so sad!  I didn’t write you any sooner, for I was waiting, for news from you.  I didn’t know where you were.

Here it is six weeks that we have been expecting the coming of the Prussians from day to day.  We strain our ears, thinking we can hear the sound of the cannon from a distance.  They are surrounding Seine-Inferieure in a radius of from fourteen to twenty leagues.  They are even nearer, since they are occupying Vexin, which they have completely destroyed.  What horrors!  It makes one blush for being a man!

If we have had a success on the Loire, their appearance will be delayed.  But shall we have it?  When the hope comes to me, I try to repel it, and yet, in the very depths of myself, in spite of all, I cannot keep myself from hoping a little, a very little bit.

I don’t think that there is in all France a sadder man than I am!  (It all depends on the sensitiveness of people.) I am dying of grief.  That is the truth, and consolations irritate me.  What distresses me is:  (1) the ferocity of men; (2) the conviction that we are going to enter upon a stupid era.  People will be utilitarian, military, American and Catholic!  Very Catholic!  You will see!  The Prussian War ends the French Revolution and destroys it.

But supposing we were conquerors? you will say to me.  That hypothesis is contrary to all historical precedents.  Where did you ever see the south conquer the north, and the Catholics dominate the Protestants?  The Latin race is agonizing.  France is going to follow Spain and Italy, and boorishness (pignouflism) begins!

What a cataclysm!  What a collapse!  What misery!  What abominations!  Can one believe in progress and in civilization in the face of all that is going on?  What use, pray, is science, since this people abounding in scholars commits abominations worthy of the Huns and worse than theirs, because they are systematic, cold-blooded, voluntary, and have for an excuse, neither passion nor hunger?

Why do they abhor us so fiercely?  Don’t you feel overwhelmed by the hatred of forty millions of men?  This immense infernal chasm makes me giddy.

Ready-made phrases are not wanting:  France will rise again!  One must not despair!  It is a salutary punishment!  We were really too immoral! etc.  Oh! eternal poppycock!  No! one does not recover from such a blow!  As for me, I feel myself struck to my very marrow!

If I were twenty years younger, I should perhaps not think all that, and if I were twenty years older I should be resigned.