strange phantoms of our own creating, who would act
anew the drama of our obstinate past follies, perplexing
us thereby into an anguish greater than mortal fancy
can depict. Thus if we indeed possessed the positive
foreknowledge of the eternal regeneration of our lives,
’twould be well to free them from all hindrance
to perfection
here,—here, while we
are still conscious of Time and opportunity.”
He paused, then went on in his customary gay manner:
“But fortunately we are not positive, nothing
is certain, no truth is so satisfactorily demonstrated
that some wiseacre cannot be found to disprove it,
. . hence it happens my friend...” and his face
assumed its wonted careless expression ... “that
we men whose common-sense is offended by priestly
hypocrisy and occult necromantic jugglery,—we,
who perhaps in our innermost heart of hearts ardently
desire to believe in a supreme Divinity and the grandly
progressive Sublime Intention of the Universe, but
who, discovering naught but ignoble Cant and Imposture
everywhere, are incontinently thrown back on our own
resources, . . hence it comes, I say, that we are
satisfied to accept ourselves, each man in his own
personality, as the Beginning and End of Existence,
and to minister to that Absolute Self which after
all concerns us most, and which will continue to engage
our best service until...well!— until History
can show us a perfectly Selfless Example, which, if
human nature remains consistent with its own traditions,
will assuredly never be!”
This was almost more than Theos could bear, . . there
was a tightening agony at his heart that made him
long to cry out, to weep, or, better still, to fling
himself on his knees and pray, . . pray to that far-removed
mild Presence, that “Selfless Example”
who he knew had hallowed and dignified the world,
and yet whose Holy and Beloved Name, he, miserable
sinner, was unworthy to even remember! His suffering
at the moment was so intense that he fancied some
reflection of it must be visible in his face.
Sah-luma, however, apparently saw nothing,—he
stepped across the room, and out to the vine-shaded
loggia, where he turned and beckoned his companion
to his side.
“Come!” he said, pushing his hair off
his brows with a languid gesture, . . “The
afternoon wears onward, and the very heavens seem
to smoke with heat,—let us seek cooler air
beneath the shade of yonder cypresses, whose dark-green
boughs shut out the glaring sky. We’ll
talk of love and poesy and tender things till sunset,
. . I will recite to thee a ballad of mine that
Niphrata loved,—’tis called ’An
Idyl of Roses,’...and it will lighten this hot
and heavy silence, when even birds sleep, and butterflies
drowse in the hollowed shelter of the arum-leaves.
Come, wilt thou? ... To-night perchance we shall
have little time for pleasant discourse!”