“You have an audacity—” Alicia ended abruptly in a wan smile.
“Haven’t I? Are you quite sure he wants to marry her?”
“I know it.”
“From him?”
“From him.”
“Oh!”—Hilda deliberated a moment nursing her slipper—“Really? Well, we can’t let that happen.”
“Why not?”
“You have a hardihood! Is no reason plain to you? Don’t you see anything?”
Alicia smiled again painfully, as if against a tension of her lips. “I see only one thing that matters—he wants it,” she said.
“And won’t be happy till he gets it! Rubbish, my dear! We are an intolerably self-sacrificing sex.” Hilda felt about for pillows, and stretched her length along the bed. “They’ve taught us well, the men; it’s a blood disease now, running everywhere in the female line. You may be sure it was a barbarian princess that hesitated between the lady and the tiger. A civilised one would have introduced the lady and given her a dot, and retired to the nearest convent. Bah! It’s a deformity, like the dachshund’s legs.”
Alicia looked as if this would be a little troublesome, and not quite worth while, to follow.
“The happiness of his whole life is involved,” she said simply.
“Oh dear yes—the old story! And what about the happiness of yours? Do you imagine it’s laudable, admirable, this attitude? Do you see yourself in it with pleasure? Have you got a sacred satisfaction of self-praise?”
Contempt accumulated in Miss Howe’s voice, and sat in her eyes. To mark her climax she kicked her slippers over the end of the bed.
“It is idiotic—it’s disgusting,” she said.
Alicia caught a flash from her. “My attitude!” she cried. “What in the world do you mean? Do you always think in poses? I take no attitude. I care for him, and in that proportion I intend that he shall have what he wants—so far as I can help him to it. You have never cared for anybody—what do you know about it?”
Hilda took a calm, unprejudiced view of the ceiling. “I assure you I’m not an angel,” she cried. “Haven’t I cared! Several times.”
“Not really—not lastingly.”
“I don’t know about really; certainly not lastingly. I’ve never thought the men should have a monopoly of nomadic susceptibilities. They entail the prettiest experiences.”
“Of course, in your profession—”
“Don’t be nasty, sweet lady. My affections have never taken the opportunities of our profession. They haven’t even carried me into matrimony, though I remember once, at Sydney, they brought me to the brink! We must contrive an escape for Duff Lindsay.”
“You assume too much—a great deal too much. She must be beautiful—and good.”
“Give me a figure. She’s a lily, and she draws the kind of beauty that lilies have from her personal chastity and her religious enthusiasm. Touch those things and bruise them, as—as marriage would touch and bruise them—and she would be a mere fragment of stale vegetation. You want him to clasp that to his bosom for the rest of his life?”