fidelity. The whole world of women now were
different creatures to him, but they left him as utterly
unmoved as in his unawakened days. It was Elizabeth
only he wanted, craved for fiercely, with all this
late-born passion of mingled sentiment and desire.
He felt himself, as he hung round there upon the
pavement, rubbing shoulders with the liveried servants,
the loafers, and the passers-by, a thing to be despised.
He was like a whipped dog fawning back to his master.
Yet if only he could persuade her to come with him,
if it were but for an hour! If only she would
sit opposite him in that wonderful little restaurant,
where the lights and the music, the laughter and the
wine, were all outward symbols of this new life from
before which her fingers seemed to have torn aside
the curtains! His heart beat with a fierce impatience.
He watched the thin stream of people who left before
the play was over, suburbanites mostly, in a hurry
for their trains. Very soon the whole audience
followed, commissionaires were busy with their whistles,
the servants eagerly looking right and left for their
masters. And then Elizabeth! She came out
in the midst of half-a-dozen others, brilliant in
a wonderful cloak and dress of turquoise blue, laughing
with her friends, to all appearance the gayest of
the party. Tavernake stepped quickly forward,
but at that moment there was a crush and he could
not advance. She passed within a yard of him,
escorted by a couple of men, and for a moment their
eyes met. She raised her eyebrows, as though
in surprise, and her recognition was of the slightest.
She passed on and entered a waiting motorcar, accompanied
by the two men. Tavernake stood and looked after
it. She did not even glance round. Except
for that little gesture of cold surprise, she had
ignored him. Tavernake, scarcely knowing what
he did, turned slowly towards the Strand.
He was face to face now with a crisis before which
he seemed powerless. Men were there in the world
to be bullied, cajoled, or swept out of the way.
What did one do with a woman who was kind one moment
and insolent the next, who raised her eyebrows and
passed on when he wanted her, when he was there longing
for her? Those old solid dreams of his—wealth,
power, his name on great prospectuses, a position
in the world—these things now appeared
like the day fancies of a child. He had seen
his way towards them. Already he had felt his
feet upon the rungs of the ladder which leads to material
success. This was something different, something
greater. Then a sense of despair chilled his
heart. He felt how ignorant, how helpless he
was. He had not even studied the first text-book
of life. Those very qualities which had served
him so well before were hopeless here. Persistence,
Beatrice had told him once, only annoys a woman.