remembered there was a hovel of furze near a sheepfold.
If she could get into that hovel, she would be warmer.
She could pass the night there, for that was what
Alick did at Hayslope in lambing-time. The thought
of this hovel brought the energy of a new hope.
She took up her basket and walked across the field,
but it was some time before she got in the right direction
for the stile. The exercise and the occupation
of finding the stile were a stimulus to her, however,
and lightened the horror of the darkness and solitude.
There were sheep in the next field, and she startled
a group as she set down her basket and got over the
stile; and the sound of their movement comforted her,
for it assured her that her impression was right—this
was the field where she had seen the hovel, for it
was the field where the sheep were. Right on
along the path, and she would get to it. She
reached the opposite gate, and felt her way along its
rails and the rails of the sheep-fold, till her hand
encountered the pricking of the gorsy wall. Delicious
sensation! She had found the shelter. She
groped her way, touching the prickly gorse, to the
door, and pushed it open. It was an ill-smelling
close place, but warm, and there was straw on the
ground. Hetty sank down on the straw with a sense
of escape. Tears came—she had never
shed tears before since she left Windsor—tears
and sobs of hysterical joy that she had still hold
of life, that she was still on the familiar earth,
with the sheep near her. The very consciousness
of her own limbs was a delight to her: she turned
up her sleeves, and kissed her arms with the passionate
love of life. Soon warmth and weariness lulled
her in the midst of her sobs, and she fell continually
into dozing, fancying herself at the brink of the pool
again—fancying that she had jumped into
the water, and then awaking with a start, and wondering
where she was. But at last deep dreamless sleep
came; her head, guarded by her bonnet, found a pillow
against the gorsy wall, and the poor soul, driven
to and fro between two equal terrors, found the one
relief that was possible to it—the relief
of unconsciousness.
Alas! That relief seems to end the moment it
has begun. It seemed to Hetty as if those dozen
dreams had only passed into another dream—that
she was in the hovel, and her aunt was standing over
her with a candle in her hand. She trembled under
her aunt’s glance, and opened her eyes.
There was no candle, but there was light in the hovel—the
light of early morning through the open door.
And there was a face looking down on her; but it was
an unknown face, belonging to an elderly man in a
smock-frock.
“Why, what do you do here, young woman?”
the man said roughly.
Hetty trembled still worse under this real fear and
shame than she had done in her momentary dream under
her aunt’s glance. She felt that she was
like a beggar already—found sleeping in
that place. But in spite of her trembling, she
was so eager to account to the man for her presence
here, that she found words at once.