and sat as if she were thinking of nothing but getting warm.  Presently she took up the letter with a firmer hand, and began to read it through again.  The tears came this time—­great rushing tears that blinded her and blotched the paper.  She felt nothing but that Arthur was cruel—­cruel to write so, cruel not to marry her.  Reasons why he could not marry her had no existence for her mind; how could she believe in any misery that could come to her from the fulfilment of all she had been longing for and dreaming of?  She had not the ideas that could make up the notion of that misery.

As she threw down the letter again, she caught sight of her face in the glass; it was reddened now, and wet with tears; it was almost like a companion that she might complain to—­that would pity her.  She leaned forward on her elbows, and looked into those dark overflooding eyes and at the quivering mouth, and saw how the tears came thicker and thicker, and how the mouth became convulsed with sobs.

The shattering of all her little dream-world, the crushing blow on her new-born passion, afflicted her pleasure-craving nature with an overpowering pain that annihilated all impulse to resistance, and suspended her anger.  She sat sobbing till the candle went out, and then, wearied, aching, stupefied with crying, threw herself on the bed without undressing and went to sleep.

There was a feeble dawn in the room when Hetty awoke, a little after four o’clock, with a sense of dull misery, the cause of which broke upon her gradually as she began to discern the objects round her in the dim light.  And then came the frightening thought that she had to conceal her misery as well as to bear it, in this dreary daylight that was coming.  She could lie no longer.  She got up and went towards the table:  there lay the letter.  She opened her treasure-drawer:  there lay the ear-rings and the locket—­the signs of all her short happiness—­the signs of the lifelong dreariness that was to follow it.  Looking at the little trinkets which she had once eyed and fingered so fondly as the earnest of her future paradise of finery, she lived back in the moments when they had been given to her with such tender caresses, such strangely pretty words, such glowing looks, which filled her with a bewildering delicious surprise—­they were so much sweeter than she had thought anything could be.  And the Arthur who had spoken to her and looked at her in this way, who was present with her now—­whose arm she felt round her, his cheek against hers, his very breath upon her—­was the cruel, cruel Arthur who had written that letter, that letter which she snatched and crushed and then opened again, that she might read it once more.  The half-benumbed mental condition which was the effect of the last night’s violent crying made it necessary to her to look again and see if her wretched thoughts were actually true—­if the letter was really so cruel.  She had to hold it close to the window, else she could not have read it by the faint light.  Yes!  It was worse—­it was more cruel.  She crushed it up again in anger.  She hated the writer of that letter—­hated him for the very reason that she hung upon him with all her love—­all the girlish passion and vanity that made up her love.