her with tender, hopeful words, lest he should throw
her into violent distress. He felt the situation
acutely, felt the sorrow of the dear thing in the
present, and thought with a darker anxiety of the
tenacity which her feelings might have in the future.
That was the one sharp point which pressed against
him; every other he could evade by hopeful self-persuasion.
The whole thing had been secret; the Poysers had not
the shadow of a suspicion. No one, except Adam,
knew anything of what had passed—no one
else was likely to know; for Arthur had impressed
on Hetty that it would be fatal to betray, by word
or look, that there had been the least intimacy between
them; and Adam, who knew half their secret, would
rather help them to keep it than betray it. It
was an unfortunate business altogether, but there was
no use in making it worse than it was by imaginary
exaggerations and forebodings of evil that might never
come. The temporary sadness for Hetty was the
worst consequence; he resolutely turned away his eyes
from any bad consequence that was not demonstrably
inevitable. But—but Hetty might have
had the trouble in some other way if not in this.
And perhaps hereafter he might be able to do a great
deal for her and make up to her for all the tears
she would shed about him. She would owe the advantage
of his care for her in future years to the sorrow she
had incurred now. So good comes out of evil.
Such is the beautiful arrangement of things!
Are you inclined to ask whether this can be the same
Arthur who, two months ago, had that freshness of
feeling, that delicate honour which shrinks from wounding
even a sentiment, and does not contemplate any more
positive offence as possible for it?—who
thought that his own self-respect was a higher tribunal
than any external opinion? The same, I assure
you, only under different conditions. Our deeds
determine us, as much as we determine our deeds, and
until we know what has been or will be the peculiar
combination of outward with inward facts, which constitutes
a man’s critical actions, it will be better not
to think ourselves wise about his character.
There is a terrible coercion in our deeds, which may
first turn the honest man into a deceiver and then
reconcile him to the change, for this reason—that
the second wrong presents itself to him in the guise
of the only practicable right. The action which
before commission has been seen with that blended common
sense and fresh untarnished feeling which is the healthy
eye of the soul, is looked at afterwards with the
lens of apologetic ingenuity, through which all things
that men call beautiful and ugly are seen to be made
up of textures very much alike. Europe adjusts
itself to a fait accompli, and so does an individual
character—until the placid adjustment is
disturbed by a convulsive retribution.