from them? His nurse, it is true, was not a pleasant
person, and had an injured and resentful bearing.
In later years he realised that it had been the bearing
of an irregularly paid menial, who rebelled against
the fact that her place was not among people who were
of distinction and high repute, and whose households
bestowed a certain social status upon their servitors.
She was a tall woman with a sour face and a bearing
which conveyed a glum endurance of a position beneath
her. Yes, it had been from her—Brough
her name was—that he had mysteriously gathered
that he was not a desirable charge, as regarded from
the point of the servants’ hall—or,
in fact, from any other point. His people were
not the people whose patronage was sought with anxious
eagerness. For some reason their town house was
objectionable, and Mount Dunstan was without attractions.
Other big houses were, in some marked way, different.
The town house he objected to himself as being gloomy
and ugly, and possessing only a bare and battered
nursery, from whose windows one could not even obtain
a satisfactory view of the Mews, where at least, there
were horses and grooms who hissed cheerfully while
they curried and brushed them. He hated the town
house and was, in fact, very glad that he was scarcely
ever taken to it. People, it seemed, did not care
to come either to the town house or to Mount Dunstan.
That was why he did not know other little boys.
Again—for the mysterious reason—people
did not care that their children should associate
with him. How did he discover this? He never
knew exactly. He realised, however, that without
distinct statements, he seemed to have gathered it
through various disconnected talks with Brough.
She had not remained with him long, having “bettered
herself” greatly and gone away in glum satisfaction,
but she had stayed long enough to convey to him things
which became part of his existence, and smouldered
in his little soul until they became part of himself.
The ancestors who had hewn their way through their
enemies with battle-axes, who had been fierce and
cruel and unconquerable in their savage pride, had
handed down to him a burning and unsubmissive soul.
At six years old, walking with Brough in Kensington
Gardens, and seeing other children playing under the
care of nurses, who, he learned, were not inclined
to make advances to his attendant, he dragged Brough
away with a fierce little hand and stood apart with
her, scowling haughtily, his head in the air, pretending
that he disdained all childish gambols, and would
have declined to join in them, even if he had been
besought to so far unbend. Bitterness had been
planted in him then, though he had not understood,
and the sourness of Brough had been connected with
no intelligence which might have caused her to suspect
his feelings, and no one had noticed, and if anyone
had noticed, no one would have cared in the very least.