stunned by the blow, for it was a very unpleasant
surprise—most unpleasant! The note
was lying in front of me on the table, and the letter
lay beside it. At first my eyes stared hopelessly
at those lines that pronounced my doom—that
is, not a death-doom, of course, for I could easily
find other securities, as many as I wanted—but
as I have already said, it was very annoying just
the same. And as I was sitting there quite unconscious
of any evil intention, my eyes fastened upon the signature
of the letter, which would have made my future secure
if it had only appeared in the right place. It
was an unusually well-written signature—and
you know how sometimes one may absent-mindedly scribble
a sheet of paper full of meaningless words. I
had a pen in my hand—[picks up a penholder
from the table] like this. And somehow it just
began to run—I don’t want to claim
that there was anything mystical—anything
of a spiritualistic nature back of it—for
that kind of thing I don’t believe in! It
was a wholly unreasoned, mechanical process—my
copying of that beautiful autograph over and over
again. When all the clean space on the letter
was used up, I had learned to reproduce the signature
automatically—and then—[throwing
away the penholder with a violent gesture] then I
forgot all about it. That night I slept long
and heavily. And when I woke up, I could feel
that I had been dreaming, but I couldn’t recall
the dream itself. At times it was as if a door
had been thrown ajar, and then I seemed to see the
writing-table with the note on it as in a distant
memory—and when I got out of bed, I was
forced up to the table, just as if, after careful
deliberation, I had formed an irrevocable decision
to sign the name to that fateful paper. All thought
of the consequences, of the risk involved, had disappeared—no
hesitation remained—it was almost as if
I was fulfilling some sacred duty—and so
I wrote! [Leaps to his feet] What could it be?
Was it some kind of outside influence, a case of mental
suggestion, as they call it? But from whom could
it come? I was sleeping alone in that room.
Could it possibly be my primitive self—the
savage to whom the keeping of faith is an unknown thing--which
pushed to the front while my consciousness was asleep—
together with the criminal will of that self, and its
inability to calculate the results of an action?
Tell me, what do you think of it?
Mr. X. [As if he had to force the words out of himself] Frankly speaking, your story does not convince me—there are gaps in it, but these may depend on your failure to recall all the details— and I have read something about criminal suggestion—or I think I have, at least—hm! But all that is neither here nor there! You have taken your medicine—and you have had the courage to acknowledge your fault. Now we won’t talk of it any more.
Mr. Y. Yes, yes, yes, we must talk of it—till I become sure of my innocence.
Mr. X. Well, are you not?