Priscilla mounted the rough road which led to the
vicarage, opened the white gate, walked up the gravel
path and entered the little porch.
Her knock was answered by the vicar himself.
He drew her into the house with an affectionate word
of welcome, and soon she was sitting
by
his study fire, with hat and jacket removed.
In the vicar’s eyes Priscilla
was not at all a plain girl. He liked
the rugged power which her face displayed; he admired
the sensible
lines of her mouth, and he prophesied great things
from that brow, so
calm, so broad, so full. Mr. Hayes had but
a small respect for the
roses and lilies of mere beauty. Mind was always
more to him than
matter. Some of the girls at St. Benet’s,
who thought very little of
poor Priscilla, would have felt no small surprise
had they known the
high regard and even admiration this good man
felt for her.
“I am glad you have called, Prissie,”
he said. “I was disappointed in not seeing
you to-day. Well, my dear, do as well in the coming
term as
you did in the past. You have my
best wishes.”
“Thank you,” said Prissie.
“You are happy in your new life, are you not, my dear child?”
“I am interested,” said
Priscilla in a low voice. Her eyes rested on
her shabby dress as she spoke. She laid one
hand over the other. She
seemed to be weighing her words. “I am
interested; sometimes I am
absorbed. My new life fills my heart; it crowds
into all my thoughts.
I have no room for Aunt Raby— no room
for my little sisters.
Everything is new to me— everything fresh
and broad. There are some
trials, of course, and some unpleasantness; but,
oh, the difference
between here and there! Here it is so narrow,
there one cannot help
getting enlightenment, daily and hourly.”
“Yes,” said Mr. Hayes
when Priscilla paused, “I expected you to say
something of this kind. I knew you could not
but feel the immense, the
immeasurable change. But why do you speak in
that complaining voice,
Priscilla?”
Prissies’ eyes were raised to his.
“Because Aunt Raby is ill, and it is wicked
of me to forget her. It is
mean
and cowardly. I hate myself for it.”
Mr. Hayes looked puzzled for a moment. Then his face cleared.
“My dear Prissie,” he
said, “I always knew there were depths of
morbidness in you, but I did not suppose that you
would sound them so
quickly. If you are to grow up to be a wise
and useful and helpful
woman by and by, you must check this intense self-examination.
Your
feelings are the natural feelings of a girl who
has entered upon a
very charming life. You are meant to lead that
life for the present;
you are meant to do your duty in it. Don’t
worry, my dear. Go back to
St. Benet’s, and study well, and learn much,
and gather plenty of
experience for the future. If you fret about
what cannot be helped,
you will weaken your intellect and tire your heart.
After all,
Prissie, though you give much thought to St. Benet’s,
and though its
ways are delightful to you, your love is still with
the old friends,
is it not?”