“Other men have said it to me.... I have heard them swear it with tears in their eyes and calling God to witness. And I knew all the while that they were lying— perjuring their souls for the sake of a ragged, unripe jade, and a wild night’s frolic.... Well— God made men.... I know myself, too.... To love you as you wish is to care less for you than I already do. I would not willingly.... Yet, I may try if you wish it.... So that is all the promise I dare make you. Come— take me home now— if you care to walk as far with me.”
“And I who am asking you to walk through life with me?” I said, forcing a laugh.
We turned; she took my arm, and together we moved slowly back through the falling dusk.
And, as we approached her door, came a sudden and furious sound of galloping behind us, and we sprang to the side of the road as the express thundered by in a storm of dust and driving pebbles.
“News,” she whispered. “Do they bring good news as fast as bad?”
“It may mean our marching orders,” I said, dejected.
We had now arrived at Croghan’s, and she was withdrawing her arm from mine, when the hollow sound of a conch-horn went echoing and booming through the dusk.
“It does mean your marching orders!” she exclaimed, startled.
“It most certainly means something,” said I. “Good-night— I must run for the fort——”
“Are you going to—— to leave me?”
“That horn is calling out Morgan’s men——”
“Am I not to see you again?”
“Why, yes— I expect so— but if——”
“Oh! Is there an ‘if’?’ Euan, are you going away forever?”
“Dear maid, I don’t know yet what has happened——”
“I do! You are going!... To your death, perhaps— for all I know——”
“Hush! And good-night——”
She held to my offered hand tightly:
“Don’t go— don’t go——”
“I will return and tell you if——”
“‘If!’ That means you will not return! I shall never see you again!”
I had flung one arm around her, and she stood with one hand clenched against her lips, looking blankly into my face.
“Good-bye,” I said, and kissed her clenched hand so violently that it slipped sideways on her cheek, bruising her lips.
She gave a faint gasp and swayed where she stood, very white in the face.
“I have hurt you,” I stammered; but my words were lost in a frightful uproar bursting from the fort; and:
“God!” she whispered, cowering against me, as the horrid howling swelled on the affrighted air.
“It is only the Oneidas’ scalp-yell,” said I. “They know the news. Their death-halloo means that the corps of guides is ordered out. Good-bye! You have means to support you now till I return. Wait for me; love me if it is in you to love such a man. Whatever the event, my devotion will not alter. I leave you in God’s keeping, dear. Good-bye.”