of this dreary region to satisfy me as to its present
condition. How then shall I satisfy others?
That Stony Desert was, I believe, the bed of a former
stream, but how can I speak decidedly on the little
I have observed of it. No! as we have been forced
back from one point, I must try another,—and
I hope you will not throw any impediment in the way.
There is every reason why you should return to Adelaide:
your health is seriously impaired,—you are
in constant pain,—and your affairs are
going to ruin; on all these considerations I would
urge you to comply with my wishes.” Mr.
Browne admitted the truth of what I said, but felt
certain that if he left, it would only be to hear
of my having perished in that horrid desert,—that
my life was too valuable to others to be so thrown
away,—that he owed me too much to forsake
me, and that he could not do that of which his conscience
would ever after reproach him;—that his
brother would attend to his interests, and that if
it were otherwise, it would be no excuse for him to
desert his friend,—that he would acquiesce
in any other arrangement, but to leave me he could
not. “Well,” I said, “I ask
nothing unreasonable from you, nothing but what the
sternness of duty calls for; and if you will not yield
to friendly solicitations, I must order you home.”
“I cannot go,” he replied; “I do
not care for any pecuniary reward for my services,
and will give it up: I want no pay, but desert
you I will not.” The reader will better
imagine than I can describe, such a scene passing in
the heart of a wilderness, and under such circumstances
I may not state all that passed; suffice it to say,
that we at length separated, with an assurance on
Mr. Browne’s part, that he would consider what
I had proposed, and speak to me again in the morning.
The morning came, and after breakfast, he said he
had endeavoured to force himself into a compliance
with my wishes, but to no purpose;—that
he could not leave me, and had made up his mind to
take the consequences. It was in vain that I
remonstrated, and I therefore ceased to importune him
on a point which, however much I might regret his
decision, I could not but feel that he was influenced
by the most disinterested anxiety for my safety.
But it became necessary to make some other arrangements;
I had already been four days idle, and it was not
my intention to let the week so pass over my head.
Mr. Browne was too ill to accompany me again into the
field. I sent, therefore, for Mr. Stuart, and
told him to put up ten weeks provisions for four men,—to
warn Morgan and Mack that I should require them to
attend me when I again left the camp,—and
to hold himself and them in readiness to commence
the journey the day but one following; as I felt the
horses required the rest I should myself otherwise
have rejected.
I then sent for Mr. Browne, and told him that I proposed leaving the stockade in two days, by which time I hoped the horses would in some measure have recovered from their fatigues,—that as he could not attend me, I should take Mr. Stuart with two fresh men,—that in making my arrangements I found that I should be obliged to take all the horses but two, the one he rode and a weaker animal; to this, however, he would by no means consent—entreating me to take his horse also, as he felt assured I should want all the strength I could get.