formerly almost burnt the feet of men and animals,
were slightly encrusted with a light glittering mantle
of hoar-frost in the shaded places, under the big
leguminous bushes, for that morning Herr Gabriel Daniel
Fahrenheit had fallen to 28 degrees. My old slabbed
well had got filled up with sand, and it was evident
that many natives had visited the place since I left
on the 24th of March, 103 days ago. We managed
to water our camels, as they lay down on the top of
the well, and stretched their long necks down into
it. We then quietly waited till long past midday
for the caravan to come up. We had nothing to
do, and nothing to eat; we could not dig out the well,
for we had no shovel. At last Mr. Tietkens got
alarmed at the non-arrival of the party, and he went
back to the camp, taking my riding-camel with him,
as she would not remain quiet by herself. I remained
there mighty hungry, and made some black smoke to
endeavour to attract any natives that might be in the
neighbourhood. I have before remarked that the
natives can make different coloured smokes, of different
form, and make them ascend in different ways, each
having a separate meaning: hurried alarm, and
signal fires are made to throw up black and white smokes.
No signals were returned, and I sat upon a sandhill,
like Patience on a monument, and thought of the line,
“That sitting alone with my conscience, is judgment
sufficient for me.” I could not perceive
any dust or sand of the approaching caravan; darkness
began to creep over this solitary place and its more
solitary occupant. I thought I had better sleep,
though I had no bedding, to pass the time away till
morning. I coiled myself up under a bush and
fell into one of those extraordinary waking dreams
which occasionally descend upon imaginative mortals,
when we know that we are alive, and yet we think we
are dead; when a confused jumble of ideas sets the
mind “peering back into the vistas of the memories
of yore,” and yet also foreshadowing the images
of future things upon the quivering curtains of the
mental eye. At such a time the imagination can
revel only in the marvellous, the mysterious, and
the mythical. The forms of those we love are idealised
and spiritualised into angelic shapes. The faces
of those we have forgotten long, or else perchance
have lost, once more return, seraphic from the realms
of light. The lovely forms and winning graces
of children gone, the witching eyes and alluring smiles
of women we have loved, the beautiful countenances
of beloved and admired youth, once more we seem to
see; the youthful hands we have clasped so often in
love and friendship in our own, once more we seem to
press, unchanged by time, unchanged by fate, beckoning
to us lovingly to follow them, still trying with loving
caress and youthful smiles to lead us to their shadowy
world beyond. O youth, beautiful and undying,
the sage’s dream, the poet’s song, all
that is loving and lovely, is centred still in thee!
O lovely youth, with thine arrowy form, and slender
hands, thy pearly teeth, and saintly smile, thy pleading
eyes and radiant hair; all, all must worship thee.
And if in waking hours and daily toil we cannot always
greet thee, yet in our dreams you are our own.
As the poet says:—