The Belton Estate eBook

This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 582 pages of information about The Belton Estate.

The Belton Estate eBook

This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 582 pages of information about The Belton Estate.
of hers had not been successful, and she regretted that she had not imposed on herself some little reticence or even a little of that coy pretence of indifference which is so often used by ladies when they are wooed.  She had been boldly honest, and had found her honesty to be bad policy.  She thought, at least, that she had found its policy to be bad.  Whether in truth it may not have been very good have been the best policy in the world tending to give her the first true intimation which she had ever yet received of the real character of the man who was now so much to her that is altogether another question.

But it was clearly her duty to make the best of her present circumstances, and she went down-stairs with a smiling face and with pleasant words on her tongue.  When she entered the breakfast-room Captain Aylmer was there; but Martha was there also, and her pleasant words were received indifferently in the presence of the servant.  When the old woman was gone, Captain Aylmer assumed a grave face, and began a serious little speech which he had prepared.  But he broke down in the utterance of it, and was saying things very different from what he had intended before he had completed it.

‘Clara,’ he began, ’what occurred between us yesterday is a source of great satisfaction to me.’

‘I am glad of that, Frederick,’ said she, trying to be a little less serious than her lover.

‘Of very great satisfaction,’ he continued; ’and I cannot but think that we were justified by the circumstances of our position in forgetting for a time the sad solemnity of the occasion.  When I remember that it was but the day before yesterday that I followed my dear old aunt to the grave, I am astonished to think that yesterday I should have made an offer of marriage.’

What could be the good of his talking in this strain?  Clara, too, had had her own misgivings on the same subject little qualms of conscience that had come to her as she remembered her old friend in the silent watches of the night; but such thoughts were for the silent watches, and not for open expression in the broad daylight.  But he had paused, and she must say something.

‘One’s excuse to oneself is this that she would have wished it so.’

’Exactly.  She would have wished it.  Indeed she did wish it, and therefore ’ He paused in what he was saying, and felt himself to be on difficult ground.  Her eye was full upon him, and she waited for a moment or two as though expecting that he would finish his words.  But as he did not go on, she finished them for him.

‘And therefore you sacrificed your own feelings.’  Her heart was becoming sore, and she was unable to restrain the utterance of her sarcasm.

‘Just so,’ said he; ’or, rather, not exactly that.  I don’t mean that I am sacrificed; for, of course, as I have just now said, nothing as regards myself can be more satisfactory.  But yesterday should have been a solemn day to us; and as it was not’

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