And, having given the promise, it was a matter of
course with him to fulfil it. He was a man who
would have never respected himself again would have
hated himself for ever, had he failed to keep a promise
from which no living being could absolve him.
He had been right therefore to make the promise, and
having made it, had been right to keep it, and to
do the thing at once. And Clara was very good
and very wise, and sometimes looked very well, and
would never disgrace him; and as she was in worldly
matters to receive much and give nothing, she would
probably be willing to make herself amenable to any
arrangements as to their future mode of life which
he might propose. In respect of this matter he
was probably thinking of lodgings for himself in London
during the parliamentary session, while she remained
alone in the big red house upon which his eyes were
fixed at the time. There was much of convenience
in all this, which might perhaps atone to him for
the sacrifice which he was undoubtedly making of himself.
Had marriage simply been of itself a thing desirable,
he could doubtless have disposed of himself to better
advantage. His prospects, present fortune, and
general position were so favourable, that he might
have dared to lift his expectations, in regard both
to wealth and rank, very high. The Aylmers were
a considerable people, and he, though a younger brother,
bad much more than a younger brother’s portion.
His seat in Parliament was safe; his position in society
was excellent and secure; he was exactly so placed
that marriage with a fortune was the only thing wanting
to put the finishing coping-stone to his edifice that,
and perhaps also the useful glory of having some Lady
Mary or Lady Emily at the top of his table. Lady
Emily Aylmer? Yes it would have sounded better,
and there was a certain Lady Emily who might have
suited. Now, as some slight regrets stole upon
him gently, he failed to remember that this Lady Emily
had not a shilling in the world.
Yes; some faint regrets did steal upon him, though
he went on telling himself that he had acted rightly.
His stars, which were generally very good to him,
had not perhaps on this occasion been as good as usual.
No doubt he had to a certain degree become encumbered
with Clara Amedroz. Had not the direct and immediate
leap with which she had come into his arms shown him
somewhat too plainly that one word of his mouth tending
towards matrimony had been regarded by her as being
too valuable to be lost? The fruit that falls
easily from the tree, though it is ever the best,
is never valued by the gardener. Let him have
well-nigh broken his neck in gathering it, unripe
and crude, from the small topmost boughs of the branching
tree, and the pippin will be esteemed by him as invaluable.
On that morning, as Captain Aylmer had walked home
from church, he had doubted much what would be Clara’s
answer to him. Then the pippin was at the end
of the dangerous bough. Now it had fallen to