‘Ay, that is the worst of having Esther,’ said Emily, ’she and Hannah have no notion of anything but the plainest work; I am sure if I had thought of all the trouble of that kind which having a young girl would entail, I would never have consented to Esther’s coming.’
‘That was entirely Lily’s scheme,’ said Jane.
’Yes; it is impossible to resist Lily, she is so eager and anxious, and it would have vexed her very much if I had opposed her, and that I cannot bear; besides, Esther is a very nice girl, and will learn.’
‘There is Robert talking to papa on the green,’ said Jane; ’what a deep conference; what can it be about?’
If Jane had heard that conversation she might have perceived that she could not wilfully offend, even in what she thought a trifling matter, without making it evident, even to others, that there was something very wrong about her. At that moment the Rector was saying to his uncle, ’I am in doubt about Jane, I cannot but fear she is not in a satisfactory state for confirmation, and I wished to ask you what you think?’
‘Act just as you would with any of the village girls,’ said Mr. Mohun.
‘I should be very sorry to do otherwise,’ said Mr. Devereux; ’but I thought you might like, since every one knows that she is a candidate, that she should not be at home at the time of the confirmation, if it is necessary to refuse her.’
‘No,’ said Mr. Mohun, ’I should not wish to shield her from the disgrace. It may be useful to her, and besides, it will establish your character for impartiality. I have not been satisfied with all I saw of little Jane for some time past, and I am afraid that much passes amongst my poor girls which never comes to my knowledge. Her pertness especially is probably restrained in my presence.’
‘It is not so much the pertness that I complain of,’ said Mr. Devereux, ’for that might be merely exuberance of spirits, but there is a sort of habitual irreverence, which makes one dread to bring her nearer to sacred tings.’
‘I know what you mean,’ said Mr. Mohun, ’and I think the pertness is a branch of it, more noticed because more inconvenient to others.’
‘Yes,’ said Mr. Devereux, ’I think the fault I speak of is most evident; when there is occasion to reprove her, I am always baffled by a kind of levity which makes every warning glance aside.’
‘Then I should decidedly say refuse her,’ said Mr. Mohun. ’It would be a warning that she could not disregard, and the best chance of improving her.’
‘Yet,’ said Mr. Devereux, ’if she is eager for confirmation, and regards it in its proper light, it is hard to say whether it is right to deny it to her; it may give her the depth and earnestness which she needs.’
‘Poor child,’ said Mr. Mohun, ’she has great disadvantages; I am quite sure our present system is not fit for her. Things shall be placed on a different footing, and in another year or two I hope she may be fitter for confirmation. However, before you finally decide, I should wish to have some conversation with her, and speak to you again.