but, happily, the insects that prey on carrion are
still more short-lived than the carcases were, from
which they draw their nutriment. Those momentary
abortions live but a day, and are thrust aside by
like embryos. Literary characters, when not
illustrious, are known only to a few literary men;
and amidst the world of books, few readers can come
to my share. Printing, that secures existence
(in libraries) to indifferent authors of any bulk,
is like those cases of Egyptian mummies which in catacombs
preserve bodies of one knows not Whom, and which are
scribbled over with characters that nobody attempts
to read, till nobody understands the language in which
they were written. I believe therefore it Will
be most wise to swim for a moment on the passing current,
secure that it will soon hurry me into the ocean where
all things are forgotten. To appoint a biographer
is to bespeak a panegyric; and I doubt whether they
who collect their books for the Public, and, like
me, are conscious of no intrinsic worth, do but beg
mankind to accept of talents (whatever they were)
in lieu of virtues. To anticipate spurious publications
by a comprehensive and authentic one, is almost as
great an evil: it is giving a body to scattered
atoms; and such an act in one’s old age is declaring
a fondness for the indiscretions of Youth, or for
the trifles of an age which, though more mature, is
only the less excusable. it is most true, Sir, that,
so far from being prejudiced in favour of my own writings
I am persuaded that, had I thought early as I think
now, I would never have appeared as an author.
Age, frequent illness and pain, have given me as many
hours of reflection in the intervals of the two latter,
as the two latter have disabled from reflection; and,
besides their showing me the inutility of all our
little views, they have suggested an observation that
I love to encourage in myself from the rationality
of it. I have learnt and practised the humiliating
task of comparing myself with great authors; and that
comparison has annihilated all the flattery that self-love
could suggest. I know how trifling my own writings
are, and how far below the standard that constitutes
excellence: as for the shades that distinguish
the degrees of mediocrity, they are not worth discrimination;
and he must be very modest, or easily satisfied, who
can be content to glimmer for an instant a little more
than his brethren glow-worms. Mine, therefore,
you find, Sir, is not humility, but pride. When
young, I wished for fame; not examining whether I
was capable of attaining it, nor considering in what
lights fame was desirable. There are two sorts
of fame; that attendant on the truly great, and that
better sort that is due to the good. I fear
I did not aim at the latter, not-discovered, till
too late, that I could not compass the former.
Having neglected the best road, and having, instead
of the other, strolled into a narrow path that led
to no good worth seeking, I see the idleness of my
journey, and hold it more graceful to abandon my wanderings
to chance or oblivion, than to mark solicitude for
trifles, which I think so myself.