all the fondness of her nature was indeed transferred
to your father. How I endured the humiliation
of that scene has often been a source of utter astonishment
to myself; but I did endure it. To my wild demand,
how she could so soon have forgotten her vows, and
falsified her plighted engagements, she replied, timidly
and confusedly, she had not yet known her own heart;
but if she had pained me by her conduct, she was sorry
for it, and hoped I would forgive her. She would
always be happy to esteem me as a friend, but she
loved her Charles far, far better than she had ever
loved me. This damning admission, couched in
the same language of simplicity that had first touched
and won my affection, was like boiling lead upon my
brain. In a transport of madness I sprang towards
her, caught her in my arms, and swore she should accompany
me back to the oasis—when I had taken her
there, to be regained by my detested rival, if he
could; but that he should not eat the fruit I had
plucked at so much peril to myself. She struggled
to disengage herself, calling on your father by the
most endearing epithets to free her from my embrace.
He attempted it, and I struck him senseless to the
floor at a single blow with the flat of my sabre,
which in my extreme fury I had unsheathed. Instead,
however, of profiting by the opportunity thus afforded
to execute my threat, a feeling of disgust and contempt
came over me, for the woman, whose inconstancy had
been the cause of my committing myself in this ungentlemanly
manner; and bestowing deep but silent curses on her
head, I rushed from the house in a state of frenzy.
How often since have I regretted that I had not pursued
my first impulse, and borne her to some wild, where,
forgetting one by whose beauty of person her eye alone
had been seduced, her heart might have returned to
its allegiance to him who had first awakened the sympathies
of her soul, and would have loved her with a love
blending the fiercest fires of the eagle with the
gentlest devotedness of the dove. But destiny
had differently ordained.
“Did my injuries end here?” pursued the
dark warrior, as his eye kindled with rage. “No:
for weeks I was insensible to any thing but the dreadful
shock my soul had sustained. A heavy stupor weighed
me down, and for a period it was supposed my reason
was overthrown: no such mercy was reserved for
me. The regiment had quitted the Highlands, and
were now stationary in ——, whither
I had accompanied it in arrest. The restoration
of my faculties was the signal for new persecutions.
Scarcely had the medical officers reported me fit
to sustain the ordeal, when a court-martial was assembled
to try me on a variety of charges. Who was my
prosecutor? Listen, Clara,” and he shook
her violently by the arm. “He who had robbed
me of all that gave value to life, and incentive to
honour,—he who, under the guise of friendship,
had stolen into the Eden of my love, and left it barren
of affection. In a word, yon detested governor,