always reigned a profound silence in the house, which
showed that the inmates had retired to rest.
There was an open communication between my room and
that of the Superior. My resolution was, if
he refused quietly to surrender the keys, to force
him, by fear of the pistol, to deliver them up, and
then by their help to gain the street. I impatiently
awaited the moment for executing my purpose.
The porter arrived at his usual time, that is to say,
soon after nine o’clock. I allowed an
hour to elapse, in order that the priests as well as
the servants might be all asleep. I at length
proceeded with my pistol and a lighted candle.
I first gave a gentle tap at the governor’s
door to awaken without alarming him. I knocked
a second time before he heard me; and supposing of
course that it was one of the priests who was taken
ill and wanted assistance, he got out of bed, dressed
himself, and came to the door. He had, however,
the precaution to ask first who it was, and what was
wanted? I was obliged to mention my name, but
I assumed a plaintive tone, to make him believe that
I was indisposed. `Ah! it is you, my dear boy,’
said he on opening the door; `what can bring you here
at this hour?’ I stepped inside the door, and
leading him to the opposite side of the room, I declared
to him that it was absolutely impossible for me to
remain longer at St. Lazare; that the night was the
most favourable time for going out unobserved, and
that I confidently expected, from his tried friendship,
that he would consent to open the gates for me, or
entrust me with the keys to let myself out.
“This compliment to his friendship seemed to
surprise him. He stood for a few moments looking
at me without making any reply. Finding that
I had no time to lose, I just begged to assure him
that I had the most lively sense of all his kindnesses,
but that freedom was dearer to man than every other
consideration, especially so to me, who had been cruelly
and unjustly deprived of it; that I was resolved this
night to recover it, cost what it would, and fearing
lest he might raise his voice and call for assistance,
I let him see the powerful incentive to silence which
I had kept concealed in my bosom. `A pistol!’
cried he. `What! my son? will you take away my life
in return for the attentions I have shown you?’
`God forbid,’ replied I; `you are too reasonable
to drive me to that horrible extremity: but I
am determined to be free, and so firmly determined,
that if you defeat my project, I will put an end to
your existence.’ `But, my dear son!’
said he, pale and frightened, `what have I done to
you? What reason have you for taking my life?’
`No!’ replied I, impatiently, `I have no design
upon your life, if you, yourself, wish to live; open
but the doors for me, and you will find me the most
attached of friends.’ I perceived the keys
upon the table. I requested he would take them
in his hand and walk before me, making as little noise
as he possibly could.