That physical power which has so long borne him up in his daily pursuits yields to the wanderings of his haunted mind. He lays his hand upon the physician’s shoulder as his struggles now subside, looks mournfully in his face, and rather mutters than speaks: “Bring-bring-bring him here: I’ll see him,—I must see him! I-I-I took away the book; there’s what makes the sting worse! And when I close my eyes I see it burning fiercely-”
“Who shall I bring?” interrupts the physician, mildly, endeavouring to soothe his feelings by assuring him there is no danger, if he will but remain calm.
“Heaven is casting its thick vengeance round me; heaven is consuming me with the fire of my own heart! How can I be calm, and my past life vaulted with a glow of fire? The finger of Almighty God points to that deed I did today. I deprived a wretch of his only hope: that wretch can forgive me before heaven. Y-e-s, he can,—can speak for me,—can intercede for me; he can sign my repentance, and save me from the just vengeance of heaven. His-his-his-”
“What?” the physician whispers, putting his ear to his mouth. “Be calm.”
“Calm!” he mutters in return.
“Neither fear death nor be frightened at its shadows-”
“It’s life, life, life I fear—not death!” he gurgles out. “Bring him to me; there is the Bible. Oh! how could I have robbed him of it! ’Twas our folly—all folly—my folly!” Mr. M’Fadden had forgotten that the bustle of current life was no excuse for his folly; that it would be summed up against him in the day of trouble. He never for once thought that the Bible and its teachings were as dear to slave as master, and that its truths were equally consoling in the hour of death. In life it strengthens man’s hopes; could it have been thus with M’Fadden before death placed its troubled sea before his eyes, how happy he would have died in the Lord!