mind, you would have reason to be surprised, and to
doubt of their possibility. Shall we ever meet
again? If we should, where will it be? On
the wild shores of——. If it be
my doom to end my days there, I will greatly improve
them; and perhaps make room for a few more families,
who will choose to retire from the fury of a storm,
the agitated billows of which will yet roar for many
years on our extended shores. Perhaps I may repossess
my house, if it be not burnt down; but how will my
improvements look? why, half defaced, bearing the
strong marks of abandonment, and of the ravages of
war. However, at present I give everything over
for lost; I will bid a long farewell to what I leave
behind. If ever I repossess it, I shall receive
it as a gift, as a reward for my conduct and fortitude.
Do not imagine, however, that I am a stoic—by
no means: I must, on the contrary, confess to
you, that I feel the keenest regret, at abandoning
an house which I have in some measure reared with
my own hands. Yes, perhaps I may never revisit
those fields which I have cleared, those trees which
I have planted, those meadows which, in my youth,
were a hideous wilderness, now converted by my industry
into rich pastures and pleasant lawns. If in
Europe it is praise-worthy to be attached to paternal
inheritances, how much more natural, how much more
powerful must the tie be with us, who, if I may be
permitted the expression, are the founders, the creators
of our own farms! When I see my table surrounded
with my blooming offspring, all united in the bonds
of the strongest affection, it kindles in my paternal
heart a variety of tumultuous sentiments, which none
but a father and a husband in my situation can feel
or describe. Perhaps I may see my wife, my children,
often distressed, involuntarily recalling to their
minds the ease and abundance which they enjoyed under
the paternal roof. Perhaps I may see them want
that bread which I now leave behind; overtaken by
diseases and penury, rendered more bitter by the recollection
of former days of opulence and plenty. Perhaps
I may be assailed on every side by unforeseen accidents,
which I shall not be able to prevent or to alleviate.
Can I contemplate such images without the most unutterable
emotions? My fate is determined; but I have not
determined it, you may assure yourself, without having
undergone the most painful conflicts of a variety of
passions;— interest, love of ease, disappointed
views, and pleasing expectations frustrated;—I
shuddered at the review! Would to God I was master
of the stoical tranquillity of that magnanimous sect;
oh, that I were possessed of those sublime lessons
which Appollonius of Chalcis gave to the Emperor Antoninus!
I could then with much more propriety guide the helm
of my little bark, which is soon to be freighted with
all that I possess most dear on earth, through this
stormy passage to a safe harbour; and when there, become
to my fellow passengers, a surer guide, a brighter