The Lights and Shadows of Real Life eBook

Timothy Shay Arthur
This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 650 pages of information about The Lights and Shadows of Real Life.

The Lights and Shadows of Real Life eBook

Timothy Shay Arthur
This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 650 pages of information about The Lights and Shadows of Real Life.

Jarvis returned to his work, and applied himself steadily during the whole afternoon.  Whenever a desire for liquor returned upon him, he quenched it in a copious draught of water, and thus kept himself as free from temptation as possible.  At night he returned, when the same troubled and uneasy silence pervaded the little family at the supper-table.  The meal was scanty, for Mrs. Jarvis’s incessant labor could procure but a poor supply of food.  After the children had been put to bed, Mrs. Jarvis sat down, as usual, to spend the evening, tired as she was, and much as her breast pained her, in sewing.  A deep sigh heaved involuntarily her bosom as she did so.  It caught the ear of her husband, and smote upon his heart.  He knew that her health was feeble, and that constant labor fatigued her excessively.

“I wouldn’t sew to-night, Jane,” he said.  “You look tired.  Rest for one evening.”

Mrs Jarvis neither looked up nor replied.  There was something in the tone of her husband’s voice that stirred her feelings;—­something that softened her heart towards him.  But she dared not trust herself to speak, nor to let her eye meet his.  She did not wish to utter a harsh nor repulsive word, nor was she willing to speak kindly to him, for she did not feel kindly,—­and kind words and affected cheerfulness, she had already found but encouraged him in his evil ways.  And so she continued to ply her needle, without appearing to regard his presence.  Her husband did not make another effort to induce her to suspend her labors; for, under existing circumstances, he was particularly desirous of not provoking her to use towards him the language of rebuke and censure.  After sitting silent, for, perhaps half an hour, he rose from his chair, and walked three or four times backwards and forwards across the room, preparatory to going out to seek a coffee-house, and there spend his evening, as his wife supposed.  But much to her surprise, he retired to their chamber, in the adjoining room.  While still under the expectation of seeing him return, his loud breathing caught her quick ear.  He was asleep!

Catching up the light, as she arose suddenly to her feet, she passed, with a hasty step, into the chamber.  He had undressed himself, was in bed, and sound asleep.  She held the candle close to his face; it was calmer than usual, and somewhat paler.  As she bent over him, his breath came full in her face.  It was not loaded with the disgusting fumes that had so often sickened her.  Her heart beat quicker—­the moisture dimmed her eye—­her whole frame trembled.  Then looking upwards, she uttered a single prayer for her husband, and, gliding quietly from the room, sat down by her little table and again bent over her work.  Now she remembered that he had said, with something unusual in his tones—­“I would not sew to-night, Jane; you look tired; rest for one evening”—­and her heart was agitated with a new hope; but that hope, like the dove from the ark, found nothing upon which to rest, and trembled back again into a feeling of despondency.

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