“Go back?” he said, aloud, after some minutes’ silence, answering to his own thoughts.  “No—­no!  I will not blast them by my presence.  Let them be happy.”

But the wish to return, once felt, grew every moment stronger, and he struggled against it until, at last, after hours of bitter remorse and repentance, weary nature yielded, and he fell off into a more quiet sleep than he had known for weeks.  In this sleep came many dreams, all of home, the old pleasant home, around which clustered every happy memory of his life; and when morning came, it found him longing to return to that home with an irrepressible desire.

“I will go back,” said he, in a firm voice, as he arose at day’s dawn, his mind clear and calm.  “I will go home.  Home—­home!”

This proved no mere effervescence of the mind.  The idea, once fully entertained, kept possession of his thoughts.  His first resolution was to save his earnings until he had enough to procure decent clothing and pay his passage back.  A week he kept to this resolution, not once tasting a drop of any intoxicating liquor.  But by that time he was so impatient of delay, that he changed his purpose, and procured a situation as deck-hand on board a steamboat that was about leaving for Pittsburg.  For this service, he was to receive three dollars for the trip, besides being furnished with his meals.  During his week of sobriety, he had been able to save two dollars.  With this money he got an old pair of boots mended which his employer at the manufactory had given him, and had his clothes repaired and washed, all of which materially improved his appearance, and gave occasion for several of his fellow-workmen to speak encouragingly, which strengthened him greatly in his good purpose.

During the passage up the river, Martin was subjected to many temptations, and once or twice came near falling into his old ways.  But thoughts of home came stealing into his mind at the right moment, and saved him.

With three dollars in his pocket, the wages he had received from the steamboat captain, Martin started for Philadelphia on foot.  He was eight days on the journey.  When he arrived, his boots were worn through, his money all expended, and himself sick with fatigue, sad and dispirited.  Luckily he met an old acquaintance, who was a hand on board a schooner loading with coal for Boston.  The vessel was to pass through the canal, and then go by the way of Long Island Sound.  Martin told his story to this old crony, who had once been a hard drinker but was now reformed, and he persuaded the captain to give him a passage.

Just two weeks from the time of his leaving Cincinnati, Martin saw the sails expand above him, and felt the onward movement of the vessel that was to bear him homeward.  His heart swelled with sad yet pleasant emotions.  It was a long time since he had heard from home; and longer still since he had seen the face of any member of his family.  For years he had been a wanderer.  Now returning, a mere wreck, so marred in every feature, and so changed, that even love would almost fail to recognize him, the eyes of his mind were bent eagerly forward.  And, as the distance grew less and less, and he attempted to realize more and more perfectly the meeting soon to take place, his heart would beat heavily in his bosom, and a dimness come before his mental vision.