of pain, because I feel that I have parted with something, a certain buoyancy and elasticity of body, and perhaps spirit, of which I was not conscious at the time, but which I now realize that I must have possessed.  It is with an admiration mingled with envy that I see these youthful, shapely figures, bare-necked and bare-kneed, swinging rhythmically past.  I watch a brisk crew lift a boat out of the water by a boat-house; half of them duck underneath to get hold of the other side, and they march up the grating gravel in a solemn procession.  I see a pair of cheerful young men, released from tubbing, execute a wild and inconsequent dance upon the water’s edge; I see a solemn conference of deep import between a stroke and a coach.  I see a neat, clean-limbed young man go airily up to a well-earned tea, without, I hope, a care, or an anxiety in his mind, expecting and intending to spend an agreeable evening.  “Oh, Jones of Trinity, oh, Smith of Queen’s,” I think to myself, “tua si bona noris!  Make the best of the good time, my boy, before you go off to the office, or the fourth-form room, or the country parish!  Live virtuously, make honest friends, read the good old books, lay up a store of kindly recollections, of firelit rooms in venerable courts, of pleasant talks, of innocent festivities.  Very fresh is the cool morning air, very fragrant is the newly-lighted bird’s-eye, very lively is the clink of knives and forks, very keen is the savour of the roast beef that floats up to the dark rafters of the College Hall.  But the days are short and the terms are few; and do not forget to be a sensible as well as a good-humoured young man!”

Thackeray, in a delightful ballad, invites a pretty page to wait till he comes to forty years:  well, I have waited—­indeed, I have somewhat overshot the mark—­and to-day the sight of all this brisk life, going on just as it used to do, with the same insouciance and the same merriment, makes me wish to reflect, to gather up the fragments, to see if it is all loss, all declension, or whether there is something left, some strength in what remains behind.

I have a theory that one ought to grow older in a tranquil and appropriate way, that one ought to be perfectly contented with one’s time of life, that amusements and pursuits ought to alter naturally and easily, and not be regretfully abandoned.  One ought not to be dragged protesting from the scene, catching desperately at every doorway and balustrade; one should walk off smiling.  It is easier said than done.  It is not a pleasant moment when a man first recognizes that he is out of place in the football field, that he cannot stoop with the old agility to pick up a skimming stroke to cover-point, that dancing is rather too heating to be decorous, that he cannot walk all day without undue somnolence after dinner, or rush off after a heavy meal without indigestion.  These are sad moments which we all of us reach, but which are better laughed over than