beauty, ever changing, perishing, ever renewing itself.
In spring the copse is full of tender points of green,
uncrumpling and uncurling. The hyacinths make
a carpet of steely blue, the anemones weave their
starred tapestry. In the summer, the grove hides
its secret, dense with leaf, the heavy-seeded grass
rises in the field, the tall flowering plants make
airy mounds of colour; in autumn, the woods blaze
with orange and gold, the air is heavy with the scent
of the dying leaf. In winter, the eye dwells with
delight upon the spare low tints; and when the snow
falls and lies, as it does to-day, the whole scene
has a still and mournful beauty, a pure economy of
contrasted light and gloom. Yet the trained perception
of the artist does not dwell upon the thought of the
place as upon a perpetual feast of beauty and delight.
Rather, it shames me to reflect, one dwells upon it
as a quarry of effects, where one can find and detach
the note of background, the sweet symbol that will
lend point and significance to the scene that one
is labouring at. Instead of being content to gaze,
to listen, to drink in, one thinks only what one can
carry away and make one’s own. If one’s
art were purely altruistic, if one’s aim were
to emphasise some sweet aspect of nature which the
careless might otherwise overlook or despise; or even
if the sight haunted one like a passion, and fed the
heart with hope and love, it would be well. But
does one in reality feel either of these purposes?
Speaking candidly, I do not. I care very little
for my message to the world. It is true that
I have a deep and tender love for the gracious things
of earth; but I cannot be content with that. One
thinks of Wordsworth, rapt in contemplation, sitting
silent for a whole morning, his eyes fixed upon the
pool of the moorland stream, or the precipice with
the climbing ashes. It was like a religion to
him, a communion with something holy and august which
in that moment drew near to his soul. But with
me it is different. To me the passion is to express
it, to embalm it, in phrase or word, not for my pride
in my art, not for any desire to give the treasure
to others, but simply, so it seems, in obedience to
a tyrannous instinct to lend the thought, the sight,
another shape. I despair of defining the feeling.
It is partly a desire to arrest the fleeting moment,
to give it permanence in the ruinous lapse of things,
the same feeling that made old Herrick say to the
daffodils, “We weep to see you haste away so
soon.” Partly the joy of the craftsman
in making something that shall please the eye and
ear. It is not the desire to create, as some say,
but to record. For when one writes an impassioned
scene, it seems no more an act of creation than one
feels about one’s dreams. The wonder of
dreams is that one does not make them; they come upon
one with all the pleasure of surprise and experience.
They are there; and so, when one indulges imagination,
one does not make, one merely tells the dream.