The Altar Fire eBook

This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 324 pages of information about The Altar Fire.

The Altar Fire eBook

This eBook from the Gutenberg Project consists of approximately 324 pages of information about The Altar Fire.
in some cases it proceeds, I think, from a hysterical desire to be thought interesting, with a faint hope, I fear, of being possibly put into a book.  Some of the letters have been simply unintelligible and inconceivable on any hypothesis, except for the human instinct to confess, to bare the heart, to display the secret sorrow.  Many of these letters are intensely pathetic, affecting, heart-rending; an invalid lady writes to say that she would like to know me, and will I come to the North of England to see her?  A man writes a pretentious letter, to ask me to go and stay with him for a week.  He has nothing to offer, he says, but plain fare and rather cramped quarters; but he has thought deeply, he adds, on many of the problems on which I touch, and thinks that he could throw light upon some of them.  Imagine what reserves of interest and wisdom he must consider that he possesses!  Then there are patronising letters from people who say that I have put into words thoughts which they have always had, and which they never took the trouble to write down; then there are requests for autographs, and “sentiments,” and suggestions for new books.  A man writes to say that I could do untold good if I would write a book with a purpose, and ventures to propose that I should take up anti-vivisection.  There are a few letters worth their weight in gold, from good men and true, writers and critics, who thank me for a book which fulfils its aim and artistic purpose, while on the other hand there are some from people who find fault with my book for not doing what I never even attempted to do.  Here is one that has given me deep and unmitigated pain; it is from an old friend, who, I am told, is aggrieved because he thinks that I have put him into my book, in the form of an unpleasant character.  The worst of it is that there is enough truth in it to make it difficult for me to deny it.  My character is, in some superficial ways, habits, and tricks of speech, like Reginald.  Well, on hearing what he felt, I wrote him a letter of apology for my carelessness and thoughtlessness, saying, as frankly as I could, that the character was not in any way drawn from him, but that I undoubtedly had, almost unconsciously, taken an external trait or two from him; adding that I was truly and heartily sorry, and hoped that there would be no ill-feeling; and that I valued his friendship even more than he probably imagined.  Here is his reply: 

MY DEAR F——­,

—­If you spit on the head of a man passing in the street, and then write to him a few days after to say that all is forgiven, and that you are sorry your aim was so accurate, you don’t mend matters.

You express a hope that after what has occurred there may be no ill-feeling between us.  Well, you have done me what I consider an injury.  I have no desire to repay it; if I had a chance of doing you a good turn, I should do it; if I heard you abused, I should stick up for you.  I have no intention of making a grievance out of it.  But if you ask me to say that I do not feel a sense of wrong, or to express a wish to meet you, or to trust you any longer as I have hitherto trusted you, I must decline saying anything of the kind, because it would not be true.

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