is very, very kind of you, Mrs. Wilson,’ said
she. Those were her words. ‘Mayhap
it is,’ says I; and my heart felt like lead.
Mother made a sign to your mamma that she should not
hurry me. I saw the signal, for I was as quick
as she was; but I never let on I saw it. At last
I plucked up a bit of courage, and I said, ‘Let
me see it.’ So mother took you from the
girl that held you all wrapped up, and mother put
you on my knees; and I took a good look at you.
You had the sweetest little face that ever came into
the world, but all peaked and pining for want of nature.
With you being on my knees, my bosom began to yearn
over you, it did. ’The child is starved,’
said I; ’that is all its grief. And you
did right to bring it’ here.’ Your
mother clasps her hands, ‘Oh, Mrs. Wilson,’
says she, ‘God grant it is not too late.’
So then I smiled back to her, and I said, ‘Don’t
you fret; in a fortnight you shan’t know her.’
You see I was beginning to feel proud of what I knew
I could do for you. I was a healthy young woman,
and could have nursed two children as easy as some
can one. To make a long story short, I gave you
the breast then and there; and you didn’t leave
us long in doubt whether cow’s milk or mother’s
milk is God’s will for sucklings. Well,
your mamma put her hands before her face, and I saw
the tears force their way between her fingers.
So, when she was gone, I said to my mother, ‘What
was that for?’ ‘I shan’t tell you,’
says she. ‘Do, mother,’ says I. So
she said, ’I wonder at your having to ask; can’t
you see it was jealousy-like. Do you think she
has not her burden to bear in this world as well as
you? How would you like to see another woman do
a mother’s part for a child of yours, and you
sit looking on like a toy-mother? Eh! Miss
Lucy, but I was vexed for her at that, and my heart
softened; and I used to take you up to the great house,
and spend nearly the whole day there, not to rob her
of her child more than need be.”
“Oh, Mrs. Wilson! Oh, you kind, noble-hearted
creature, surely Heaven will reward you.”
“That is past praying for, my dear. Heaven
wasn’t going to be long in debt to a farmer’s
wife, you may be sure; not a day, not an hour.
I had hardly laid you to my breast when you seemed
to grow to my heart. My milk had been tormenting
me for one thing. My good mother had thought
of that, I’ll go bail; and of course you relieved
me. But, above all, you numbed the wound in my
heart, and healed it by degrees: a part of my
love that lay in the churchyard seemed to come back
like, and settle on the little helpless darling that
milked me. At whiles I forgot you were not my
own; and even when I remembered it, it was—I
don’t know—somehow—as if
it wasn’t so. I knew in my head you were
none of mine, but what of that? I didn’t
feel it here. Well, miss, I nursed you a year
and two months, and a finer little girl never was
seen, and such a weight! And, of course, I was
proud of you; and often your dear mother tried to