“But I do care, I do care. That’s why I’ve come here.”
“You are right to care if it is so,” said Father Robertson.
“Such lots of women wouldn’t,” she continued, in a quite different, almost cynical, voice. “But that man is an exceptional man—not in intellect, but in heart. And I’m a very happy woman. Perhaps you wonder what that has to do with it. Well sometimes I see things through my happiness, just because of it; sometimes I see unhappiness through it.”
Her voice had changed again, had become much softer. She drew her chair a little nearer to the fire.
“Do you ever receive confessions, Mr. Robertson—as a priest, I mean?” she asked.
“Yes, very often.”
“They are sacred, I know, even in your church.”
“Yes,” he said, without emphasis.
His lack of emphasis decided her. Till this moment she had been undecided about a certain thing, although she herself perhaps was not fully aware of her hesitation.
“I want to do a thing that I have never yet done,” she said. “I want to be treacherous to a friend, to give a friend away. Will you promise to keep my treachery secret forever? Will you promise to treat what I am going to tell you about her as if I told it to you in the confessional?”
“If you tell it to me I will. But why must you tell it to me? I don’t like treachery. It’s an ugly thing.”
“I can’t help that. I really came here just for that—to be treacherous.”
She looked into the fire and sighed.
“I’ve covered a great sin with my garment,” she murmured slowly, “and I repent me!”
Then, with a look of resolve, she turned to her white-haired companion.
“I’ve got a friend,” she said—“a woman friend. Her name is Cynthia Clarke. (I’m in the confessional now!) You may have heard of her. She was a cause celebre some time ago. Her husband tried to divorce her, poor man, and failed.”
“No, I never heard her name before,” said Father Robertson.
“You don’t read causes celebres. You have better things to do. Well, she’s my friend. I don’t exactly know why. Her husband was Councillor in my husband’s Embassy. But I knew her before that. We always got on. She has peculiar fascination—a sort of strange beauty, a very intelligent mind, and the strongest will I have ever known. She has virtues of a kind. She never speaks against other women. If she knew a secret of mine I am sure she would never tell it. She is thoroughbred. I find her a very interesting woman. There is absolutely no one like her. She’s a woman one would miss. That’s on one side. On the other—she’s a cruel woman; she’s a consummate hypocrite; she’s absolutely corrupt. You wonder why she’s my friend?”
“I did not say so.”