came to Lily and made his offer, he did it with perfect
ease and thorough self-possession, for he almost knew
that it was expected. And Lily, though she had
been flurried for a moment, had her answer pat enough.
She already loved the man with all her heart, delighted
in his presence, basked in the sunshine of his manliness,
rejoiced in his wit, and had tuned her ears to the
tone of his voice. It had all been done, and the
world expected it. Had he not made his offer,
Lily would have been ill-treated;—though,
alas, alas, there was future ill-treatment, so much
heavier, in store for her! But there are other
cases in which a lover cannot make himself known as
such without great difficulty, and when he does do
so, cannot hope for an immediate answer in his favour.
It is hard upon old friends that this difficulty should
usually fall the heaviest upon them. Crofts had
been so intimate with the Dale family that very many
persons had thought it probable that he would marry
one of the girls. Mrs Dale herself had thought
so, and had almost hoped it. Lily had certainly
done both. These thoughts and hopes had somewhat
faded away, but yet their former existence should
have been in the doctor’s favour. But now,
when he had in some way spoken out, Bell started back
from him and would not believe that he was in earnest.
She probably loved him better than any man in the
world, and yet, when he spoke to her of love, she could
not bring herself to understand him.
“I don’t know what you mean, Dr Crofts;
indeed I do not,” she said.
“I had meant to ask you to be my wife; simply
that. But you shall not have the pain of making
me a positive refusal. As I rode here to-day
I thought of it. During my frequent rides of late
I have thought of little else. But I told myself
that I had no right to do it. I have not even
a house in which it would be fit that you should live.”
“Dr Crofts, if I loved you,—if I
wished to marry you—” and then she
stopped herself.
“But you do not?”
“No; I think not. I suppose not. No.
But in any way no consideration about money has anything
to do with it.”
“But I am not that butcher or that baker whom
you could love?”
“No,” said Bell; and then she stopped
herself from further speech, not as intending to convey
all her answer in that one word, but as not knowing
how to fashion any further words.
“I knew it would be so,” said the doctor.
It will, I fear, be thought by those who condescend
to criticise this lover’s conduct and his mode
of carrying on his suit, that he was very unfit for
such work. Ladies will say that he wanted courage,
and men will say that he wanted wit. I am inclined,
however, to believe that he behaved as well as men
generally do behave on such occasions, and that he
showed himself to be a good average lover. There
is your bold lover, who knocks his lady-love over
as he does a bird, and who would anathematise himself