Lily had evidently intended to return home through the front door; but she changed her purpose before she reached the house, and made her way slowly back through the churchyard, and by the gate of the Great House, and by the garden at the back of it, till she crossed the little bridge.  But on the bridge she rested awhile, leaning against the railing as she had often leant with him, and thinking of all that had passed since that July day on which she had first met him.  On no spot had he so often told her of his love as on this, and nowhere had she so eagerly sworn to him that she would be his own dutiful loving wife.

“And by God’s help so I will,” she said to herself, as she walked firmly up to the house.  “He has gone, mamma,” she said, as she entered the breakfast-room.  “And now we’ll go back to our work-a-day ways; it has been all Sunday for me for the last six weeks.”

CHAPTER XVI

Mr Crosbie Meets an Old Clergyman on His Way to Courcy Castle

For the first mile or two of their journey Crosbie and Bernard Dale sat, for the most part, silent in their gig.  Lily, as she ran down to the churchyard corner and stood there looking after them with her loving eyes, had not been seen by them.  But the spirit of her devotion was still strong upon them both, and they felt that it would not be well to strike at once into any ordinary topic of conversation.  And, moreover, we may presume that Crosbie did feel much at thus parting from such a girl as Lily Dale, with whom he had lived in close intercourse for the last six weeks, and whom he loved with all his heart,—­with all the heart that he had for such purposes.  In those doubts as to his marriage which had troubled him he had never expressed to himself any disapproval of Lily.  He had not taught himself to think that she was other than he would have her be, that he might thus give himself an excuse for parting from her.  Not as yet, at any rate, had he had recourse to that practice, so common with men who wish to free themselves from the bonds with which they have permitted themselves to be bound.  Lily had been too sweet to his eyes, to his touch, to all his senses for that.  He had enjoyed too keenly the pleasure of being with her, and of hearing her tell him that she loved him, to allow of his being personally tired of her.  He had not been so spoilt by his club life but that he had taken exquisite pleasure in all her nice country ways, and soft, kind-hearted, womanly humour.  He was by no means tired of Lily.  Better than any of his London pleasures was this pleasure of making love in the green fields to Lily Dale.  It was the consequences of it that affrighted him.  Babies with their belongings would come; and dull evenings, over a dull fire, or else the pining grief of a disappointed woman.  He would be driven to be careful as to his clothes, because the ordering of a new coat would entail a serious expenditure.  He could go no