“I am not to be foiled with one rebuff.
I know her better than she knows me, for the busy
world has canvassed her life, while they have never
meddled with my own: and I think there are points
of contact enough between us for us to understand
each other, if we once found an opportunity.
She stands in a position which I shall never occupy,
and she has more power and strength than I; else she
had never stood where she does, for she has shaped
her fortunes by her own unaided will. Her face
was not her fortune, as most people suppose, but her
mind. She has accomplished whatever she has undertaken,
and she can accomplish much more, for her resources
are far from being developed. Those around her
may remember yet that she was not always on a footing
with them; but they will not do so long. She will
be their leader, for she was born to rule. Yes;
and she queens it most proudly among them. It
were a pity to lose sight of her stately, graceful
dignity. I regard her very much as I would some
beautiful exotic, and her opinion of me affects me
about as much as if she were the flower, and not the
mortal. And yet I can never see her without wishing
that the influence she exerts might be turned into
a better channel. She has much of good about
her, and I think that it needs but a few hints to
make life and its responsibilities appear to her as
they do to me. I have a message for her ear, but
she must not know that it was intended for her.
She has too much pride of place to receive it from
me, and too much self-confidence to listen knowingly
to the suggestions of any other mind than her own.
Therefore, I will seek the society of Isabel Walters
whenever I can, without appearing intrusive, until
she thinks me worthy her notice, or drops me altogether.
My talent lies in thinking, but she has all the life
and energy I lack, and would make an excellent actor
to my thought, and would need no mentor when her attention
was once aroused. My usefulness must lie in an
humble sphere, but hers—she can carry it
wherever she will. It will be enough for my single
life to accomplish, if, beyond the careful training
of my own family, I can incite her to a development
of her powers of usefulness. People will listen
to her who will pay no attention to me; and, besides,
she has the time and means to spare, which I have not.”
“Everywhere, in Europe, they were talking of
you, Mrs. Walters,” said a lady, who had spent
many years abroad, “and adopting your plans
for vagrant and industrial schools, and for the management
of hospitals and asylums. I have seen your name
in the memorials laid before government in various
foreign countries. You have certainly achieved
a world-wide reputation. Do tell me how your attention
came first to be turned to that sort of thing?
I supposed you were one of our fashionable women,
who sought simply to know how much care and responsibility
they could lawfully avoid, and how high a social station
it was possible to attain. I am sure something
must have happened to turn your life into so different
a channel.”