the impersonation of all that was lovely and excellent;
his presence made my sense of happiness complete;
his voice touched my ears as the blending of all rich
harmonies. But there fell upon him a shadow;
there came hard discords in the music which had entranced
my soul; the fine gold was dimmed. Then came
that period of mad strife, of blind antagonism, in
which we hurt each other by rough contact. Finally,
we were driven far asunder, and, instead of revolving
together around a common centre, each has moved in
a separate orbit. For years that dark period
of pain has held the former period of brightness in
eclipse; but of late gleams from that better time have
made their way down to the present. Gradually
the shadows are giving away. The first state
is coming to be felt more and more as the true state—as
that in best agreement with what we are in relation
to each other. It was the evil in us that met
in such fatal antagonism—not the good;
it was something that we must put off if we would
rise from natural and selfish life into spiritual and
heavenly life. It was our selfishness and passion
that drove us asunder. Thus it is, dear Rose,
that my thoughts have been wandering about in the
maze of life that entangles me. In my isolation
I have time enough for mental inversion—for
self-exploration—for idle fancies, if you
will. And so I have lifted the veil for you;
uncovered my inner life; taken you into the sanctuary
over whose threshold no foot but my own had ever passed.”
There was too much in all this for Mrs. Everet to
venture upon any reply that involved suggestion or
advice. It was from a desire to look deeper into
the heart of her friend that she had spoken of her
meeting with Mr. Emerson. The glance she obtained
revealed far more than her imagination had ever reached.
CHAPTER XXVI.
LOVE NEVER DIES.
THE brief meeting with Mrs. Everet had stirred
the memory of old times in the heart of Mr. Emerson.
With a vividness unknown for years, Ivy Cliff and
the sweetness of many life-passages there came back
to him, and set heart-pulses that he had deemed stilled
for ever beating in tumultuous waves. When the
business of the day was over he sat down in the silence
of his chamber and turned his eyes inward. He
pushed aside intervening year after year, until the
long-ago past was, to his consciousness, almost as
real as the living present. What he saw moved
him deeply. He grew restless, then showed disturbance
of manner. There was an effort to turn away from
the haunting fascination of this long-buried, but now
exhumed period; but the dust and scoria were removed,
and it lifted, like another Pompeii, its desolate
walls and silent chambers in the clear noon-rays of
the present.
After a long but fruitless effort to bury the past
again, to let the years close over it as the waves
close over a treasure-laden ship, Mr. Emerson gave
himself up to its thronging memories and let them
bear him whither they would.