Thoughts of great deeds were
mine, dear Friend, when first
The clouds which wrap this
world from youth did pass.
I do remember well the hour
which burst
My spirit’s sleep:
a fresh May-dawn it was,
When I walked forth upon the
glittering grass,
And wept, I knew not why;
until there rose
From the near school-room,
voices, that, alas!
Were but one echo from a world
of woes—
The harsh and grating strife
of tyrants and of foes.
And then I clasped my hands
and looked around—
—But none was near
to mock my streaming eyes,
Which poured their warm drops
on the sunny ground—
So without shame I spake:—“I
will be wise,
And just, and free, and mild,
if in me lies
Such power, for I grow weary
to behold
The selfish and the strong
still tyrannize
Without reproach or check.”
I then controlled
My tears, my heart grew calm,
and I was meek and bold.
And from that hour did I with
earnest thought
Heap knowledge from forbidden
mines of lore,
Yet nothing that my tyrants
knew or taught
I cared to learn, but from
that secret store
Wrought linked armour for
my soul, before
It might walk forth to war
among mankind.
Thus power and hope were strengthened
more and more
Within me, till there came
upon my mind
A sense of loneliness, a thirst
with which I pined.
The second is a fragment on friendship preserved by Hogg. After defining that kind of passionate attachment which often precedes love in fervent natures, he proceeds: “I remember forming an attachment of this kind at school. I cannot recall to my memory the precise epoch at which this took pace; but I imagine it must have been at the age of eleven or twelve. The object of these sentiments was a boy about my own age, of a character eminently generous, brave, and gentle; and the elements of human feeling seemed to have been, from his birth, genially compounded within him. There was a delicacy and a simplicity in his manners, inexpressibly attractive. It has never been my fortune to meet with him since my school-boy days; but either I confound my present recollections with the delusions of past feelings, or he is now a source of honour and utility to every one around him. The tones of his voice were so soft and winning, that every word pierced into my heart; and their pathos was so deep, that in listening to him the tears have involuntarily gushed from my eyes. Such was the being for whom I first experienced the sacred sentiments of friendship.” How profound was the impression made on his imagination and his feelings by this early friendship, may again be gathered from a passage in his note upon the antique group of Bacchus and Ampelus at Florence. “Look, the figures are walking with a sauntering and idle pace, and talking to each other as they walk, as you may have seen a younger and an elder boy at school, walking in some grassy spot of the play-ground with that tender friendship for each other which the age inspires.”