as a lovely woman seated on a revolving wheel, throwing
crowns and laurel wreaths from her right hand, while
only thorns dropped in a sharp, stinging shower from
the other; but, after a time, the wheel turned, and
now I feel only the soft pattering of the laurel leaves.
God knows I do most earnestly appreciate His abundant
blessing upon what I have thus far striven to effect;
but, until I see my way clearly to some subject of
importance which a woman’s hand may touch, I
shall not take up my pen. Books seem such holy
things to me, destined to plead either for or against
their creators in the final tribunal, that I dare
not lightly or hastily attempt to write them; and
I can not help thinking that the author who is less
earnestly and solemnly impressed with the gravity,
and, I may almost say, the sanctity of his or her
work, is unworthy of it, and of public confidence.
I dare not, even if I could, dash off articles and
books as the rower shakes water-drops from his oars;
and I humbly acknowledge that what success I may have
achieved is owing to hard, faithful work. I have
received so many kind letters from children, that
some time, if I live to be wise enough, I want to
write a book especially for them. I am afraid
to attempt it just now; for it requires more mature
judgment and experience, and greater versatility of
talent to write successfully for children than for
grown persons. In the latter, one is privileged
to assume native intelligence and cultivation; but
the tender, untutored minds of the former permit no
such margin; and this fact necessitates clearness
and simplicity of style, and power of illustration
that seem to me very rare. As yet I am conscious
of my incapacity for the mission of preparing juvenile
books; but perhaps, if I study closely the characteristics
of young people, I shall learn to understand them
more thoroughly. So much depends on the proper
training of our American youth, especially in view
of the great political questions that now agitate
the country, that I confess I feel some anxiety on
the subject.”
“But, Edna, you will not adhere to your resolution
of keeping silent. The public is a merciless
task-master; your own ambition will scourge you on;
and having once put your hand to the literary plough,
you will not be allowed to look back. Rigorously
the world exacts the full quota of the author’s
arura.”
“Yes, sir; but ‘he that plougheth should
plough in hope’; and when I can see clearly
across the wide field, and drive the gleaming share
of truth straight and steady to the end, then, and
not till then, shall I render my summer-day’s
arura. Meantime, I am resolved to plough no crooked,
shallow furrows on the hearts of our people,”
At length when Mr. Manning rose to say good-night,
he looked gravely at the governess, and asked:
“Edna, can not Lila take the vacant place in
your sad heart?”
“It is not vacant, sir. Dear memories walk
to and fro therein, weaving garlands of immortelles—singing
sweet tunes of days and years—that can
never die. Hereafter I shall endeavor to entertain
the precious guests I have already, and admit no more.
The past is the realm of my heart; the present and
future the kingdom where my mind must dwell, and my
hands labor.”